IS EACH ONE TO BE JUDGED IN THE END?
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IS EACH ONE TO BE JUDGED IN THE END?
IS EACH ONE TO BE JUDGED IN THE END?
2. Is this your judgment on yourself, teacher of God? ²Do you believe that this is wholly true? ³No; not yet, not yet. ⁴But this is still your goal; why you are here. ⁵It is your function to prepare yourself to hear this Judgment and to recognize that it is true. ⁶One instant of complete belief in this, and you will go beyond belief to Certainty. ⁷One instant out of time can bring time’s end. ⁸Judge not, for you but judge yourself, and thus delay this Final Judgment. ⁹What is your judgment of the world, teacher of God? ¹⁰Have you yet learned to stand aside and hear the Voice of Judgment in yourself? ¹¹Or do you still attempt to take His role from Him? ¹²Learn to be quiet, for His Voice is heard in stillness. ¹³And His Judgment comes to all who stand aside in quiet listening, and wait for Him.
Day of Judgment
I see that the Day of Judgment isn’t a specific day in time, but is the day I accept the truth in my Heart. It is the day I stand aside from my own judgments so that I can hear the Voice for God declare me innocent. What seems to be happening right now is that I am looking at various projections of the guilt. Guilt I still hold in my mind allowing the Holy Spirit to show me that I am not guilty for these, and neither is anyone else.
Guilt
By helping me to see that I am innocent of these seeming sins He is bringing me to the core of the guilt. I have learned to accept that all guilt, regardless of the form it takes, is really guilt (original sin). When I imagined I could separate myself from God I felt fear. It was guilt of a magnitude that I could not endure and so I pretended it wasn’t there. And ever since then I have been making stories to explain a guilt I refuse to acknowledge.
Innocent
The Course has been telling me over and over in so many ways that I have never done anything wrong. God is not mad at me. I am completely loved. I am innocent. These words have penetrated. I am open now to hearing them, and so I am being given more help in the form of books, teachers, and teaching opportunities.
I open my email, and there is a message from a teacher with exactly the next step which follows from the one before which came from a book I’d never heard of until I was directed to it. More help comes in my dreams. The entire universe is conspiring to help me awaken to the truth that I am innocent.
Hope
The closer I got to the truth, the harder the fear and guilt pushed against it. However, instead of being a dense wall it was a bank of clouds. I can see through it! I would think of how perfectly I was being guided, step by step. The synchronicities that make this happen would bring me a moment of giddy delight. The clouds would return and it would be dark again, but never as dark as it used to be.
I am fulfilling my function of preparing myself to hear God’s Final Judgment and I am listening to His Voice. Looking at what I need to look at. I am watching my thoughts and asking for correction. I am reading the books, hearing the messages, delighting in the synchronicities. If you are looking at my life you would never guess the miracle that is taking place within. It looks much the same as it looked yesterday and the day before, but everything is changing.