VI. Judgment and the Authority Problem, P 10
10 Peace is a natural heritage of spirit. Everyone is free to refuse to accept his inheritance, but he is not free to establish what his inheritance is. The problem everyone must decide is the fundamental question of authorship. All fear comes ultimately, and sometimes by way of very devious routes, from the denial of Authorship. The offense is never to God, but only to those who deny Him. To deny His Authorship is to deny yourself the reason for your peace, so that you see yourself only in segments. This strange perception is the authority problem.
This is good news, indeed! What I understand from reading this paragraph is that I am free to deny the truth of who I am. I can pretend that I am not the free and perfect Son of God. I can do this all day long for as long as I can stand the pain. It is not a sin and God is not offended. It changes nothing and so no harm is done. Who I am is unassailable. I can deny my Self, but I cannot change my Self.
All fear and guilt are derived from the misunderstanding that I am free to change what God has done. He created me but I think that because I am having an imaginary experience of being something else that I have authored myself. I think I have undone what God has done and that I have re-created my self. Now I am my own creator.
It’s easy to see why I believe that. I am so immersed in this story of separation that I believe it is true. I think I am Myron and that I really am this fragile body living this uncertain existence, doomed to die and who knows what happens after that, if anything. And yet, I have an ancient memory that persists. It is the source of all the God stories that just won’t die, and it is the source of the persistent hope for something better.
What keeps the complete truth from my mind is the fear that although I was once beloved of God my sins have made me unworthy. Since I seemed to be this person, and this proves I succeeded in becoming my own creator, then my assault on God must be real as well. My guilt and fear of what I have done keep me trapped in my story, the prodigal son afraid to return home.
But none of that is true. I cannot create myself. I cannot undo what God has done. I cannot offend God. God is not judgmental or vengeful. Those are projections from the separated mind. Those are ego beliefs that I have put on God. When I “re-created” myself, I also “re-created” God in my image, making Him the fallible being I see myself to be. Thank you, God, that neither thing can be true! God remains God, pure unadulterated Love, and I remain His sinless Son.