C 8: VI. The Treasure of God, P 7

VI. The Treasure of God, P 7

7 An “unwilling will” does not mean anything, being a contradiction in terms that actually means nothing. When you think you are unwilling to will with God, you are not thinking. God’s Will is Thought. It cannot be contradicted by thought. God does not contradict Himself, and His Sons, who are like Him, cannot contradict themselves or Him. Yet their thought is so powerful that they can even imprison the mind of God’s Son, if they so choose. This choice does make the Son’s function unknown to him, but never to his Creator. And because it is not unknown to his Creator, it is forever knowable to him.

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Here is what I understand from this paragraph. The chatter that goes on in my mind is not really thought. It is what I do instead; it is what takes the place of thought. I know it is not truly thought because it is not what I think with God. It is not His Thought. I have imprisoned my true thoughts, or have hidden from myself these thoughts, but they are not hidden from God. God knows my thoughts and so they are still available to me.

Because God’s Will is Thought, it cannot be contradicted by my made up thought. My made up thoughts can hide my real thought, but cannot change them. Because of the unchangeable nature of thought this means I cannot will apart from God. We share the same Will and nothing I imagine can change this.

I have nothing to be afraid of. I share the Thought of God and I share His Will. This is an absolute, and cannot be undone. This is true all the time, even when I am confused and try to think apart from God, even when I think I want an individual separate will. My Will and my Thought is preserved for me because that is God’s Will.

What does this mean to me right now where I think I am? I can take a deep breath and relax. I can let go of the buried fear and dread, the guilt that keeps me hiding out here in my illusion. All the generalized anxiety and the resultant projections are not necessary. There is nothing for me to fear and I am not guilty, because nothing has happened. The mind is very powerful and can project an image of nothing, and can even imprison itself in this image, but it cannot change God’s Will. I’m ok. God is not mad and I am not lost. I am safe.

I will continue to open my heart and mind to God. I will continue to look at my errors with the Holy Spirit and allow them to be undone for me. This doesn’t change, but what can change now is the uncertainty and doubt that has plagued me in the past. The idea that I can will against God’s Will and my true will is not true. My success is guaranteed. I will return to God because that is His Will.

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