II. The Alternative to Projection, P 7
7 The perfect equality of the Holy Spirit’s perception is the reflection of the perfect equality of God’s knowing. The ego’s perception has no counterpart in God, but the Holy Spirit remains the bridge between perception and knowledge. By enabling you to use perception in a way that reflects knowledge, you will ultimately remember it. The ego would prefer to believe that this memory is impossible, yet it is your perception the Holy Spirit guides. Your perception will end where it began. Everything meets in God, because everything was created by Him and in Him.
My perception is my way of seeing things. It is how I interpret what I see and hear and think. My perception was informed by influences from my childhood and it varies even now according to my mood and which book I have read lately. At its best, my perception will only be an opinion formed outside of knowledge. There is no perception in God. There is only Knowledge that does not change. God does not perceive, He knows.
It seems such a huge gap, this perceiving that I do and the absolute knowledge of God. The ego would have me believe that there is no way to bridge that gap, but there is a way. The Holy Spirit is the bridge between perception and knowledge. As I willingly offer the Holy Spirit my thoughts for reinterpretation, He corrects them so that they are closer to knowledge.
As I have done this, my thinking, my perceptions, have shifted to something that more accurately reflects knowledge. While it is not knowledge it is so much closer to knowledge that an ancient memory has begun to stir within me. As this memory grows and comes more into focus, I begin to remember who I am.
I am meant to recover this memory and I am meant to do so now! This is the secret that ego would keep from me. It would have me work toward awakening as long as I keep it as a distant possibility. I can even think of it as an inevitability as long as it still seems far away. This is why, as I approach awakening, the ego points out my errors, dredging up long forgotten sins to show me how unworthy I am.
It distracts and discourages. But now I remember that the ego has no power over me. It is not my master, but only an idea in my mind, an idea I formulated and therefore one that I can choose against. The Holy Spirit has corrected my thinking about the ego and so I am closer to being in alignment with knowledge than before. I am not so easily fooled now, and can even laugh to realize that I was only being fooled by myself.
At one time I would have been greatly discouraged by the ego thoughts that arise in the mind. I would have thought that their presence meant I was failing to awaken, and that I was so far from awakening that it felt hopeless to me. Now I see the thoughts and realize that any reaction to them, any feeling of anxiety, indicates that I am experiencing the remnants of a belief I no longer want. I turn to the Holy Spirit for healing.