HOW WILL THE WORLD END?
page 36, paragraph 4
HOW WILL THE WORLD END?
HOW WILL THE WORLD END?
4. The world will end when its thought system has been completely reversed. ²Until then, bits and pieces of its thinking will still seem sensible. ³The final lesson, which brings the ending of the world, cannot be grasped by those not yet prepared to leave the world and go beyond its tiny reach. ⁴What, then, is the function of the teacher of God in this concluding lesson? ⁵He need merely learn how to approach it; to be willing to go in its direction. ⁶He need merely trust that, if God’s Voice tells him it is a lesson he can learn, he can learn it. ⁷He does not judge it either as hard or easy. ⁸His Teacher points to it, and he trusts that He will show him how to learn it.
I am becoming aware of how I still hold onto the bits and pieces of the illusion. I am also aware of how the Holy Spirit is holding these parts up for me to see and is giving me a chance to make a different choice. Life is very exciting right now as I am meeting my lessons without fear and with confidence that the Holy Spirit will direct me to lessons that I am ready to learn.
One day I read about a book. I read about a lot of books and people often recommend certain books. Most of the time I never get around to them, but this time I immediately bought the book and began reading it. It’s called, Dying to Be Me. It’s about a woman’s struggle with cancer, her near death experience, and what she learned from that. It is an extraordinary book and one that Holy Spirit used to bring me to the next lesson.
There are a number of truly helpful and encouraging things in that book, but the one that I worked with right away was letting go of fear. This was an important lesson for Anita, and the main reason she returned to life was to share this message. When I have been reading her book, I became more aware of how much my life was driven by fear.
I am noticing how often I made decisions based on my fears, how often I set aside my joy and self-love out of fear. My Heart would guide me in a direction, then my head will warn me to deny that desire. The head is always saying, in one form or another, “Be afraid.”
I want to buy something, and the ego warns me that I will run out of money if I waste it. I have a pain in my leg, and the ego wonders if I have a blood clot, and if it would break loose and block something that would kill me. The mind doesn’t have all the details but remembers reading about this danger and so grabs hold of it and if I pay attention, soon the mind will have me at death’s door.
I would want to stay home and rest after a long day but someone would ask me to do something for them and I would feel obligated. I do the favor, not out of love, but out of fear of being a bad person if I didn’t. The Holy Spirit helped me to see that even as I ask Him for guidance that sometimes I do it with an attitude of martyrdom. I was asking with the fear that I would be asked to suffer, but I would do it because it was the right thing to do. There seemed to be no part of my life that was entirely free of fear.
The mind saw this as scary too. It reasoned that I could never be free of fear because it is all about me, and too much a part of me. It was afraid that I could not do this and would just feel guilty for not succeeding. But that morning I was not influenced by the mind. I was listening to the Heart, which is joyful and knows that I am led only where I am ready to go. Knowing how this pervasive sense of fear could be overcome was unnecessary. I only had to give my willingness, and my willingness was strong.
I was given two things to do. The first was to allow myself to become aware of things that make me happy. I had been so focused on what I thought I should be doing for so long, that I couldn’t remember what it was that I want to be doing. The Holy Spirit asked me to just allow this. He said to check in with my gut feeling rather than asking my mind.
The second thing I received was that I was to focus on the truth when fear arises. If I didn’t feed fear with my attention it will starve to death. So that was my job. I was to be happy and not pay any attention to the thoughts that suggest things to be afraid of. I was pretty sure I could do this.
Later, I got this message. I am to add this to my practice: When I am aware of a lesson I am to learn, I will simply walk into it with trust. Jesus says that if he asks us to do something we can do it. There are no hierarchy of illusions so one lesson cannot be harder than another. It is only ego that says this lesson is harder than another or that lesson is too hard, painful or impossible. Instead of allowing this judgment of the lesson, I am going to just ask what it is I am to do, how I am to see this, and what He would have me learn.
I am walking forward with confidence knowing Who goes there with me, knowing that it is with the strength of God in me that I do this. PS: I followed these instructions for a few years. I still follow them. They helped me to shift into a more peaceful life, one that is happy for the most part. There is very little fear left in my life. Now when I notice a fearful thought it is no big deal. I know that I can release that thought, and that I can start seeing the world from the perspective of the Holy Spirit’s correction.