SHOULD HEALING BE REPEATED?
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SHOULD HEALING BE REPEATED?
4 One of the most difficult temptations to recognize is that to doubt a healing because of the appearance of continuing symptoms is a mistake in the form of lack of trust. 2As such it is an attack. 3Usually it seems to be just the opposite. 4It does appear unreasonable at first to be told that continued concern is attack. 5It has all the appearances of love. 6Yet love without trust is impossible, and doubt and trust cannot coexist. 7And hate must be the opposite of love, regardless of the form it takes. 8Doubt not the gift and it is impossible to doubt its result. 9This is the certainty that gives God’s teachers the power to be miracle workers, for they have put their trust in Him.
I bet that everyone has fallen into this ego trap. You pray for someone in all sincerity but nothing seems to happen. Then you pray again or you try to think of reasons it did not work. Maybe you think that it is the patient’s fault. He just doesn’t want to be healed and so it can’t be received. Maybe you even felt resentment that he doesn’t want healing.
Or maybe you feel afraid that you are the one who is not worthy an answer. Or worst of all, maybe the truth is not true. Maybe God is judging you or him or the situation and pain and suffering is His answer. After all, how about Job, who God seemed to test beyond all reason? Or maybe there is not a God at all and you are praying desperately to thin air.
Mostly, what I used to experience was an unacknowledged fear when my prayer did not seem to have effects. And continuing to pray in the hopes of finally doing it right or to finally convincing God would seem like the only thing to do if I loved this person I was praying for. It has taken me a long time to understand the true nature of prayer.
Now when I pray, I understand what faith really is because I understand that I can trust prayer and the Answer to prayer. I don’t always know why the appearance does not change when the prayer is offered, but I know the prayer has been answered and that I don’t need to understand how or when it will unfold.
I am asking that the mind of the patient be healed along with mine. How that manifests in the world is not for me to decide. I don’t really know what is needed, or what outcome is best for the awakening mind. The timing is not for me to decide either. My only part is to ask for healing, to trust that my prayer is answered, and to trust my brother that he will accept it, as he is ready to do so and that his timing is perfect.
This total trust is love, not the fear and doubt and confusion I used to experience. My fear and doubt led to repeated pleading prayers, which are not actually prayers at all. I have learned to trust my brother and I have learned to trust God. When my trust does waver, I know that it is now time to ask for healing of my own mind.