What is this moment teaching me?
I do not live any ordinary moments.
With each breath, my experiences are the stepping stones
laid before me of God to guide me home.
What I learned
I, as have you, have decided to wake up from the dream. Everything that happens to me is one more step toward that awakening. This realization has allowed me to see my life differently. Nothing is a tragedy and nothing is simply nice. It is all purposeful and I am frequently asking myself, “What is it for?” In A Course in Miracles Jesus says: “In any situation in which you are uncertain, the first thing to consider, very simply is, What do I want to come of this? What is it for?” Knowing that I have called to me every experience that will help me to awaken, I better understand the purpose of asking what it is for.
Weight control has been an issue for me since I had my first child. Earlier in my life I used this issue to prove that I am weak willed and unable to control myself. I told myself that my metabolism was too slow, that I inherited my mom’s fat genes and that it was just a matter of finding the right diet. I told myself whatever I could think of as an excuse at the moment. Weight gain and my failure to stay on a diet were always caused by something I considered to be outside my ability to control (projection).
The other day I decided to return to being careful of my sugar intake. I am gaining a little weight and I don’t like the way I feel when I eat too much sugar. That very evening I ate a piece of cake. I noticed my reaction. I felt anxious and realized I was thinking that I had no control over my compulsion to eat cake. I laughed at myself and wondered how I could have no control over me. How ridiculous! I simply chose to eat the cake.
I then asked myself what this is for and that reminder put me back on track. My goal is to awaken and so this is to help me awaken. I remembered that I am literally creating everything I choose and nothing is forced on me. I remembered that this situation is a blessing and a gift as I use it to remember that I have the freedom within me to choose what I want to perceive and to elicit only what I want to feel, and that this is a great power.
This is a very different use of the situation and it is the result of setting my goal and remembering that goal. This seemed like just another typical and unremarkable moment in my life but it was actually a wonderful blessing, a step laid before me to guide me home. I decided to fully embrace myself, all of me, including the part of my mind that seems to be in conflict with my higher good. I love myself and so I heal myself.
All quotes are used by kind permission of the Shanti Christo Foundation. To buy a copy of this profound book visit their website at www.shantichristo.com. I invite your thoughts and comments.