C 1: I. Principles of Miracles, P 33

I. Principles of Miracles, P 33

33 Miracles honor you because you are loveable. They dispel illusions about yourself and perceive the light in you. They thus atone for your errors by freeing you from your nightmares. By releasing your mind from the imprisonment of your illusions, they restore your sanity.

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I have imprisoned my will, the will I share with God. I have closed off all memory of that glorious Self so that I could have a realistic experience of being separate. I have done such a good job of this. My experience feels so real. I can hardly believe that I am not a being in a body with its own separate will. It seems so realistic, all this emotion, the anger and fear, the shame, jealousy, suffering, disappointment. And then the wild swing to pleasures of all kinds only to plummet into bitter disappointment as I realize the pleasure is never permanent. Wow! What a ride this turned out to be. I don’t remember my true nature yet, but what an extraordinary and powerful being I must be to have done this.

When I chose to plunge into this freewheeling experience of feeling separate from God, I knew it wasn’t real, but also knew that I would forget that it was not real, but that was OK because God put a key in my mind, a way to extricate myself from the dream world I had made. As my mind became ready to be released from this self-imposed prison, I would find the key. The key would begin unlocking prison doors; not all at once, but one at a time at first, so I could slowly back out of the stories. It would be too startling, too jarring, to just pop out of it.

For the Myron character this seemed to begin as an awareness that things are not as they seem. Then various books and teachers showed up in her life to point to different ways to see things. She slowly became aware of an alternative Voice in her mind, one that began to reveal her true nature. This same thing, with variations, began to happen for, first a few, then more and more of us. Because all of these characters are from the same mind, the more of them that awaken, the easier it is for the rest. I am in awe of the first few of us to hear that Voice and follow it. That could not have been easy. Now there are so many of us waking up that the mind responds more quickly and easily.

A couple of days ago I had the beginnings of a migraine. It was an intensely painful headache and nausea. I immediately took a pill because my experience is that I have to catch it quickly or it can last up to three days. I seemed fine until I woke up the next day and it was back. I didn’t want to take another pill because I had to go to work. Suddenly I had the thought that this headache is not real. I allowed the thoughts to come to me.

Where did this headache come from? There is no power in the body to make a head ache. There is no power in the environment or in the food I eat to trigger a headache. There is no power in pills to ease the headache. The only power that exists is within me. The headache and the nausea simply vanished. Poof. It was gone. It could not stand against the truth. Really, what happened is that I wanted to know the truth, I wanted my true Self to be released from the prison of false thoughts I had designed to hide my Self from my self. And so this is what happened. “Nothing occurs but represents your wish, and nothing is omitted that you choose.” WB L152

The miracle that I experienced occurred because of the decision to know the truth. I decided I wanted to know the truth about this headache. I set aside all I thought I knew about migraines and the way the world works. I stepped out of the bounds of time and space and the laws of the world, and fully accepted that I am under no laws but God’s. I ignored all I taught myself, all the proof I had provided for myself that the world is real and its law’s immutable. That was a miracle. The effect of the miracle was the instant release from pain.

Now here is the tricky part, the part where confusion is most likely to obscure the truth. I am happy I decided not to have a migraine. In the story which I am still experiencing, Myron is mostly concerned with freedom from pain. I am still identified with that persona, so I am happy, too. However, I am not as identified with her as before and I am also identified, perhaps more identified, with spirit. I know that the miracle happened in the mind. Both body and pain are an illusion and so can’t be healed. The miracle was in the change of mind that precipitated the change in the illusion. My experience has been that when the change in mind occurs there is usually a change in the illusion, which only makes sense because the illusion is an effect of the mind.

I stood there in the middle of the floor feeling intense gratitude as I felt no pain and as I realized that I would never again be able to blindly accept that I am under laws that were made to bind me to the illusion. I still feel pain just as I still have ego thoughts, and I asked for enlightenment about this. The feeling and thought that came to me was that the miracles would continue to flow through me and that I can wait in certainty for complete healing. No worries. I suppose I am still unlocking doors, one at a time.

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