I. The Last Step, P 2
2 If you created God and He created you, the Kingdom could not increase through its own creative thought. Creation would therefore be limited, and you would not be co-creators with God. As God’s creative Thought proceeds from Him to you, so must your creative thought proceed from you to your creations. Only in this way can all creative power extend outward. God’s accomplishments are not yours, but yours are like His. He created the Sonship and you increase it. You have the power to add to the Kingdom, though not to add to the Creator of the Kingdom. You claim this power when you become vigilant only for God and His Kingdom. By accepting this power as yours you have learned to remember what you are.
I remember the first time I read something in the Course about my creations. I was astounded at the thought. I was titillated, curious and fascinated. I try to imagine what that is. What does it look like, my creations? I cannot even begin to guess, and yet I continue to create, to extend the Kingdom of God, even while I imagine myself in time. The memory of my creations is in my mind alongside the thoughts I think with God. Maybe they are the thoughts I think with God.
At this point in my awakening I think it is helpful for me to remind myself that I am a creator, that I create like God, and that this is ongoing. I remind myself of this because my experience is so different right now, and so narrowly focused, that I cannot remember any of this. I am ready to claim my power and so I am vigilant for God and His Kingdom. I am not vigilant only for God yet, but I get closer to that every day.
I was asking Jesus if there was anything else he wanted me to see concerning this paragraph and as I sat here my mind seemed to wander to someone I know who is sick. I thought about how his actions seemed to have brought on the sickness and that this is a pattern for him and maybe that is his lesson in this lifetime. Maybe he is learning that self will does not bring him happiness and peace.
Then Jesus gently turned my mind in another direction. I understood that it is not my job to discern his lessons, nor is it my job to judge him. It is funny really, because everything I thought about this friend of mine is exactly true of me. I bring on my own sickness through the wrong-
minded thoughts in my mind. This is a pattern for me too, and maybe that is one of my lessons for this lifetime as I accept that self-will and a need to control are not making me happy. They are not bringing me home.
How might I be vigilant only for the God and His Kingdom in this case? How do I accept my power and remember what I am? The answer I received is that I am to turn my face from the ego appearance and the ego desire to assign blame. Instead I am to remember the Will of God. What is God’s Will for His Son? It is not God’s Will that His Son be condemned for his errors, and it is not God’s Will that His Son be punished for them.
It is God’s Will that His Son be only as he was created. And it is my job to know this is true. It is true for my friend, and it is true for me. My eyes show me the appearance of a sickly body when I look at my friend. But my eyes are blind. They don’t see what is before them. Their only use is to report to me what I want to believe. As I accept only that the truth is true, I am empowered with vision.
Today I choose to disregard appearances. Appearances are only the shadows of my mistaken beliefs. They are meaningless. Today I commit to allowing my mind to see what is actually there. I commit to this sacred purpose. “Holy Spirit, I open my mind to You and invite You to correct my thinking. Keep me vigilant only for God and His Kingdom. Thank you.”