ACIM Workbook Daily Lesson 211, Year 2022

ACIM Daily Lesson 211. I am the holy Son of God Himself. 

I am the holy Son of God Himself.  ACIM Lesson 211

I am the holy Son of God Himself. 

ACIM Lesson 211

Lesson 211

I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me. 

1. (191) I am the holy Son of God Himself. 

²In silence and in true humility I seek God’s glory, to behold it in the Son whom He created as my Self. 

³I am not a body. ⁴I am free.
⁵For I am still as God created me. 

First, I am not this body that appears so very real and relevant. I am not this body because this body is an image that represents a thought in the mind. It is an image that allows me to experience separation and to see myself as special. It does not, in reality, exist. So, when Jesus tells us that we are the holy Son of God Himself, he is not speaking of this image. He is speaking of our Self, and this Self has no body. It is not an image and is not the effect of a personal desire. It is real. It is creation. 

Seeking God’s Glory

When I first started studying the Course, and for a long time, I mostly identified with the image. I felt like the body and its stories. It felt like me. Slowly, that began to change, and I felt less like the image, and I began to identify more closely with spirit. Now, generally, when I say me or I, my feeling is that I am referring to my Self rather than my self.  

This is by no means a total shift. I know it is not because I still desire to see specialness sometimes. But that will fall away, too, as I keep releasing those thoughts. In all honesty, I seek God’s glory, to behold it in the Son He created as my Self. I seek it in everyone, and when I find an ego perception instead, I go in silence and true humility to the Holy Spirit for correction and another way to see. 

Specialness

I am sharing with someone a Pathways of Light course that emphasizes releasing the belief in specialness. It has been extremely valuable to me to do the exercises it suggests and to share them with a mind-healing partner. It asks us to look at the many ways we want to see specialness. In one of the processes, it asks us to recognize specialness thinking by thinking of ways we see differences and ‘orders of reality’ in the people in our life. ⁸Look fairly at whatever makes you give your brother only partial welcome, or would let you think that you are better off apart. (ACIM, T-24.I.7:8

The Process from the Course I Used

How I see specialness in my thinking 

First special love 

There are people in my life who I prefer over others. This makes love special and makes love personal. Love is universal and unconditional. If my mind were completely healed, I would love the one in front of me and then the next one when she/he showed up. There would not be a difference to me. Love might be experienced differently because of the nature of the relationship, but the love itself would be the same and would not lessen depending on the person.  

Then special hate 

Another way this can show up is if I think I am better than someone else. This makes me special at the expense of another person. Or even if I think we are both special in our lack as compared to others. I used to have people I hated for their personalities or for their actions. All of this is just a way of making it separate and different. Also, anyone, I would hold a grievance against.  

Digging Deep

I don’t do this nearly as much as I used to so I had to dig deep to find specific circumstances. I thought about someone I know who is mentally ill. This is one place where I see us as different. I discovered that someone I know well has gone over the deep end with conspiracy theories. I see her as different than me and want to avoid socializing with her. Sometimes on FB, I run into people who think they have all the answers and everyone else is wrong. I think they are wrong. LOL.  

I want to let all of this go. AndI want to know Love as it is, not as I would make it. I want to know Oneness and there cannot be exceptions to oneness. I can imagine this so I know that I can have it. 

This Is Helping Me Release Ego Thinking

In doing this process and others like it, and in reading sections of the Course that focus on this error, I have discovered some hidden and not-so-hidden ways it comes up in my beliefs. This has helped me to release more ego thinking. As I do so, I find I am aware of what is the same in each of us, the Love of God that we are, rather than focusing my awareness on the illusion of differences. This, in turn, reinforces the desire to know my Self, to know that I am God’s holy Son.

I seek God’s glory in two ways. I monitor my life and thoughts to see what is blocking my vision. And, I meditate more and in this meditation, I sink into my mind below the surface level of the ego and find my true Self. Or at least that is the goal. I will succeed, of course, and I have used various techniques to help me overcome the ego desire for distraction.  

The Witness

I have recently started listening to the silence, understanding that this silence is my Self. I might also refer to it as becoming aware of awareness because awareness can be another way of referring to my Self. From silence, all sound arises, and I have discovered that I can be aware of silence even when thoughts are floating through my mind, even when people are talking to me or the ambient sounds are loud.  

I think this is important because I am starting to relate more closely with that from which all other things arise… my Self. No matter what is going on in the story, I remain the eternal watcher, the experiencer of what shows up, the watcher, not the judger. This is pretty new to me, so it is not consistent, but I am sure it will become so. 

I Am as God Created Me

From a past entry. I was beginning to seriously consider what it means to be as God created me. 

I am, with us all, the holy Son of God, I and all of us together, the Family of God. We are the one Son who was created as an extension of God, who has never changed. I remember who I am as I release all that I am not. I remember who I am as I release all that everyone else is not. It is true for all, this knowing, or it is not true at all. 

We are not guilty, not vulnerable, not afraid. There is no jealousy, no confusion, no sickness, no suffering, and no death. There is no one who is separate from me. These beliefs in guilt, vulnerability, fear, and death, are what I must relinquish if I am to know my Self because they are not part of me. I am so accustomed to believing what I see with my eyes and what I feel with my bodily senses, that it seems insane to deny these things. But that is exactly what I must do. I will continue to be aware of them while this story continues, but I am learning to deny the body and all the world as real.

The Opposite of Reality

Vulnerability is the very opposite of my reality, as are guilt and fear. I am immortal, so what could death mean to me? I have all knowledge and complete certainty so how could I be confused? All of these things are experiences that I (we) chose. In our power as the Son of God, our choice unfolded in all its impossibilities, and we have been in the midst of this choice for eons of time and for no time. 

Ending the Dream

This is what I must accept if I am to end this dream of separation. As I accept it more fully, the business of releasing all that is false gets a little easier. Today, I look at my mind and I see acceptance and I look at my life and I see witnesses to this acceptance. And I see how much happier and more fulfilled I am in my life. 

I see people, all sorts of people, expressing love and kindness toward me. I see guilt and fear falling away. That is, certain forms of guilt and fear in my life are no longer there. I used to see the fear that my retirement would be financially difficult, that I would suffer lack. That all went away and has not returned. I see those thoughts sometimes but don’t believe them, so they have no effect. 

On the Other Hand

On the other hand, I see thoughts in my mind that need to be corrected. I see the worry that arises around my children. Most recently, I have gained weight again (sigh) and I wonder if I will ever let that go. I have a little war going on in my mind. I want to lose weight, and evidently, I do not. And I want to quit using my body as a battleground between opposing desires. 

It seems like such a shallow thing, and the ego argues that I should not even care. But Jesus says that a broken body shows that the mind is not healed, and this is, in my mind, a broken body. This business of believing I am helpless before this problem, in believing that I am victim to a body that has a mind of its own, or even that I am victim to my own false ego desires, is ridiculous and yet persistent. 

I see that weight gain is symbolic of all resistance to accepting the mantle of Divinity, and that is my purpose now. It is no more and no less important than any other symbol of resistance. I want to know myself as my Father’s Son, yet I am evidently still afraid to accept my place in Him. I choose to release this to the Holy Spirit as in all things. And I ask that He heal my mind. I long to remember my Self and to remember my God. 

More Excerpts from the Past 

I am the holy Son of God Himself. Knowing this to be true is the whole point of everything I do in my life. Every day, I am vigilant for my thoughts and willing to look with the Holy Spirit, even though it is sometimes frightening to do so. It is why I study the course, read related books, and do the lessons. I am moving ever closer to knowing that I am the Son of God Himself. There is little point in doing any of this unless I am willing to know this truth. 

And so, I also practice every day sitting with the idea that I am as I was created, the Holy Son of God. I just try it on and play with the idea. I think about being a creator and what that means. Yes, I have become willing to accept total responsibility for everything that happens in my life, but I have been unwilling to admit that this is a form of creation. It has been creation gone amuck, but the same power that creates also miscreates. It could not happen if I were not the Son of God. 

Power and Strength

The Course points out that while I have not created anything that is real, it is not without power. I have made illusions, but my belief in the illusions is very strong, and the dream state they left me in appears very real. I will not wake from this state by denying my power and denying my Sonship. Even in my dreams, I am the Son of God Himself. I am determined to awaken to the full knowledge of what that means. 

Me: Holy Spirit, my deepest desire is to remember what it means to be the Son of God. Please help me see differently, know that I am asleep, and not mistake this slumber for life. I am also willing to learn with joy. You have been showing me this is possible, but I cannot seem to hold onto that. I find myself to be in tears often. 

The Message

Holy Spirit: Precious child, holy Son of God, your deepest desire is also the desire of your Father. You cannot but have what is the will of both. If it seems not to be true it is only because that is not your only desire, but do not despair. It will become your only desire. Every day you spend with Me strengthens your resolve and loosens your hold on every other desire. 

Indeed, it is not necessary that this be sad or hard. We spent an entire day laughing, which was very joyful, was it not? It is an ego notion that hard work is painful work. This work can be joyful and will be joyful when you decide that guilt will no longer drive your actions. Guilt is a decision you made and has nothing to do with God. I invite you to release this iron grip you have on the need to precede every healing with guilty thoughts and subsequent pain. If you will open your hand, I will take this from you. We could spend every day in gentle laughter. 

I Am Willing

Me: Holy Spirit, I am willing. But even as I say this, I feel tears welling up in my eyes. I don’t feel especially sad about it. It is as if there is a disconnect somewhere. I don’t really understand this. 

Holy Spirit: As more things come up for healing, you will have emotional releases like this. Sometimes you may feel pain with it or grief, but those will be caused not from releasing ego thoughts but by resistance to releasing them. Either way, you are doing your work. Thank you. 

Me: And I thank You for being always with me. Thank you for your clear and ever-present Voice. 

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