I. The Message of the Crucifixion, P 7
7 Your resurrection is your reawakening. I am the model for rebirth, but rebirth itself is merely the dawning on your mind of what is already in it. God placed it there Himself, and so it is true forever. I believed in it, and therefore accepted it as true for me. Help me to teach it to our brothers in the name of the Kingdom of God, but first believe that it is true for you, or you will teach amiss. My brothers slept during the so-called “agony in the garden,” but I could not be angry with them because I knew I could not be abandoned.
I almost overlooked the message in that first sentence. Jesus says that my resurrection is my reawakening. Jesus was resurrected from what seemed like death to show that there is no death and the Son of God cannot die. I will experience my own resurrection as I wake up from the dream. But wait! He says my resurrection is my reawakening. In another place in the Course Jesus says that when he ascended we were with him, and now it seems that when he resurrected, we were with him. We share the same mind.
It seems, though, that we must also experience the resurrection from our own point of view as well, and Jesus experiences it with us, just as we experienced his with him. Jesus has awakened from the dream but it is not complete until he awakens through all of us. This seems odd to us who are still dreaming we are separate, but again, we share the same mind.
Awakening should be easy since we are reborn as we remember what is already in our minds, but to do so, we must accept what is there. We must believe it. Jesus wants our help. He wants us to teach what is true, but we must believe it ourselves in order to teach it. We are innocent, every one of us and in every case, we are innocent. We are invulnerable and so cannot be hurt. We cannot be betrayed or abandoned. We are as God created us. This is true regardless of the stories we tell ourselves.
It seems so easy when Jesus puts it like this. We are, simply, as God created us. All we have to do is turn away from everything we think we know and everything we think we see, feel, experience in any way. We only have to stop believing our eyes and ears and mind. We have to give up all our favorite victim stories. Easy peasy, right?
As it turns out, it’s not so easy to do. Even those who were following Jesus found it impossible to believe that no one was guilty. They felt guilty for falling asleep in the Garden. They felt guilty for abandoning and betraying Jesus, even as he was teaching them that he cannot be betrayed or abandoned. But this is the lesson. This is the way we wake up. We simply accept as true that we are as God created us.
Really, how hard can this be? Surely, it is harder to maintain the illusion that we can be different than we are created. I am not making a literal story of being crucified, but I do crucify myself in little ways all the time to prove that I am separate and a victim and not at all like the Divine being God created in His Own image.
Sunday my car started acting up and I will have to take it to be fixed. The dealership can’t even look at it until Thursday. Then my ceiling fan broke and now I will have to find someone to replace it. There are other little things around the house that are going to have to be fixed as well. I can’t do these things myself and the ego thinks these are all disasters.
It also thinks I am a victim and these problems prove it. The ego says I will never see myself any other way and I am guilty for that. But the Holy Spirit speaks, too. He says that these are no big deal, that they are simply effects of the vestiges of the belief in victimization. “Let the belief in guilt and victimhood be healed,” He says. “Just another opportunity to heal the mind for the Sonship, that’s all.”
He tells me that these effects are meaningless, but He will use them to heal my mind and then I can teach perfection for Him. I feel kind of sheepish as I get down from the cross. I still forget the truth and need a gentle reminder from time to time. The Holy Spirit doesn’t mind. That is His function.