Lesson 354
We stand together, Christ and I, in peace
And certainty of purpose. And in Him
Is His Creator, as He is in me.
My oneness with the Christ establishes me as Your Son, beyond the reach of time, and wholly free of every law but Yours. I have no self except the Christ in me. I have no purpose but His Own. And He is like His Father. Thus must I be one with You as well as Him. For who is Christ except Your Son as You created Him? And what am I except the Christ in me?
Journal
I am part of Christ and Christ is part of God. We are in God and God is in us. Today, I stand on that truth and live from it. Today, I am certain of my purpose. I love that this is the lesson today. I woke up a little early and decided to meditate before I got out of bed. Sometimes this is an excellent time to meditate before the mind has a chance to get busy and other times I just fall back to sleep.
But this morning, I did something different. I stated what I wanted. I said that I wanted a good meditation and then to fall back to sleep, and that is exactly what happened. I am learning to state my desires clearly and to expect them to be honored. I keep getting what I ask for so I must be doing this right. Starting the morning with a good meditation is lovely and really sets the tone for the day. Knowing that I am loved and honored and my mind is powerful is wonderful, too.
Recently, I asked for clarity as to what I should be focused on now. I was told to stop listening to the chatter. I have been trying to do that for so very many years and with gathering success but still far from total success. But this is what I want and so I expect it to happen. I have already noticed that I catch the chatter more quickly and I have little interest in it. Most happily, it doesn’t feel like an endless chore anymore. I am truly standing with Christ in peace and certainty.
Regina’s Tips
Our special theme says, “We are the bringers of salvation. We accept our part as saviors of the world, which through our joint forgiveness is redeemed. And this, our gift, is therefore given to us. We look on everyone as brother, and perceive all things as kindly and as good.”
Yesterday I addressed a confusion that forms in the minds of some students of A Course in Miracles. The confusion is that one is a divine individual, and the projection of the world comes from the divine individual mind. (For example, the idea that Sally and Sam are projections of Maria’s individual mind.)
We are not divine individuals. The individual is part of the projection of consciousness. That means that the healing of one individual mind does not end the projection of suffering in the world. That is why our special theme says the world is redeemed through our “joint forgiveness.” However, our special theme goes on to say:
And this, our gift, is therefore given to us. We look on everyone as brother, and perceive all things as kindly and as good.
Even though the world will continue with its ego projections for humans who still believe the ego thought system, the one who awakens beyond the ego thought system will see God in all projections. This is what the Course calls “true perception.”
My Thoughts
Regina goes on to share a great message she received from the Holy Spirit. I highly recommend reading the entire tip. I think this is clarification is very important. Sometimes when students try to apply the principles of the Course from a standpoint of the separated individual, it can be confusing and even frightening or depressing.
A person might meet someone cruel and think, “This is my projection and so I must be cruel.” It makes more sense to realize that this cruel person is a projection of the mind we all share and that mind has the belief in cruelty. If this happens to me, what then is my individual part in healing the mind? I might ask if I have ever expressed that belief in my life?
Have I ever been cruel to anyone or to myself? I know that I have. Even if I have not, this energy of cruelty has shown up in my life therefore it is for me to forgive whether it has shown up in my personal experience or not. I ask that the belief in cruelty be healed in all of consciousness.
As the individual mind heals more and more, the cruelty is still there but the awakened mind sees it differently. It is no longer personal and the individual is no longer seen as guilty. They are simply choosing to express what is in the mind as a whole and the reason for that choice is unknown to me so I cannot judge nor do I want to. Another thing I notice is that I might have a quick feeling of discouragement at the cruelty of man but then I feel love and compassion for the individual who is manifesting a belief we all need to heal. All must be seen before it can be undone.
Past Entries
I am closer now to experiencing myself as Christ, but I am not without conflict about this. One moment I feel so close that I feel comfortable thinking about it, even comfortable saying it aloud; maybe not quite there, but touching it for a moment, not drinking it in, but sipping it and just tasting it. Then I step into the thought and I feel a surge of fear that throws me out of it. I have become identified with the personhood of Myron, and think that is me. I am willing to be wrong about that and have moments in which I know I am wrong, but just can’t quite seem to let that identity go. It is the old adage that it isn’t much but it is what I have. I know Myron, and I don’t know Christ.
I am, however, very encouraged that I have felt the surge of fear at the thought that I am Christ. It means I am getting close enough to the truth to scare myself. In the meantime, I will simply continue to notice the thoughts which are not what Christ would think and I will give my willingness to see differently. And as they fall away I will trust that the Christ will be revealed. I am what I seek.
2011
As I read this, I realized it is no longer really true. When I think of myself I absolutely know I am not Myron. And I am not consciously aware of the fear of losing myself in the way I was before. On the other hand, I never completely believe I am the Christ. I know – this doesn’t make sense. But it seems to be my experience at the moment.
What has not changed is that I continue to watch my thoughts, ask for guidance, and surrender.
2016
I know this is true and it doesn’t scare me. I know that I want to Awaken to that knowing, never to forget it again. I keep peeking behind the veil, but never truly moving past it. But I know that I will and I hunger for it, to remember who I am and who you are. I feel this deep longing for Home, and yet I also feel an infinite patience. I am certain that it will happen and though I don’t understand why it hasn’t happened yet, I accept that there is a reason and I just keep doing what I am given to do every day. I forgive and forgive and forgive.
2017
I have asked the Holy Spirit to bring up what is left of my ego beliefs so that I can let them go and finally be completely free. This is happening, one belief after another showing up in my life. They show up as circumstances and sometimes as random thoughts. It is not as harsh a process as it used to be, maybe because I am not so deeply attached to these beliefs as I once was. In the meantime, there is a lot of peace and happiness.
This morning, I sit here in quiet and ask the Holy Spirit what He wants me to see. Ah, my mind keeps returning to my plumbing problem. Someone from the company is going to come by to give me an estimate on the cost to fix my problem. The only thing I have been told is that it is the most expensive repair they can do. I was wondering how much it will cost and if I will have the money for it. I see a fear of loss of my savings, small as it is, and a belief in lack, that there is not enough money for what I need. I notice a resentment that when some plumbing work was being done on my house when I first bought it that no one noticed this problem then when I had more money. I also see that this is unreasonable.
This is the kind of thing that is being brought to my attention, the beliefs that need to be released. So I am happy to be aware of them so that I can look with the Holy Spirit and let them go. I let myself consider the worst case scenarios and to feel the fear that one of them could occur. Then I ask for correction. I am happy that my emotional response is not as strong as it would have been in the past. I am ready to leave this problem to the Holy Spirit. It will be what it will be and there is nothing I can change about that from within the world, nor do I want to try. More importantly, I will to leave the belief in lack and loss with Him so that it doesn’t show up in some other image as a situation in my life.
I am so grateful to have done this work for a long time now because the lessons are not upsetting to me like they would have been otherwise. It feels more like housekeeping now. It is kind of funny, really. I notice that my ego mind keeps trying to bring this problem back into focus for me. It is as if, in listening to the ego, I am hearing proof of what I always suspected; that there are limits to the idea of abundance and I have finally reached that limit with this problem. And that this situation proves the world is real and I am endangered. That cannot be true because the truth is true in every situation or it is not true at all. It is only in the ego mind that truth is variable. In reality, there is only truth and it does not shift and change with circumstances. I feel happy that I know this now.
Father, I am Your Son. I know this and I happily let go of every other belief that would dispute this one unalterable truth.
2018
Now I am sitting in quiet and asking to know myself. I ask in different ways, sometimes asking that my mind be healed, but what does not change is that I ask in confidence that I will be answered. It feels like a holy moment as I sit in silence knowing that the Holy Spirit is purifying my mind.