Lesson 27

Lesson 27

Above all else I want to see.

Today’s idea expresses something stronger than mere determination. It gives vision priority among your desires. You may feel hesitant about using the idea, on the grounds that you are not sure you really mean it. This does not matter. The purpose of today’s exercises is to bring the time when the idea will be wholly true a little nearer.

There may be a great temptation to believe that some sort of sacrifice is being asked of you when you say you want to see above all else. If you become uneasy about the lack of reservation involved, add:

Vision has no cost to anyone.

If fear of loss still persists, add further:

It can only bless.

The idea for today needs many repetitions for maximum benefit. It should be used at least every half hour, and more if possible. You might try for every fifteen or twenty minutes. It is recommended that you set a definite time interval for using the idea when you wake or shortly afterwards, and attempt to adhere to it throughout the day. It will not be difficult to do this, even if you are engaged in conversation, or otherwise occupied at the time. You can still repeat one short sentence to yourself without disturbing anything.

The real question is, how often will you remember? How much do you want today’s idea to be true? Answer one of these questions, and you have answered the other. You will probably miss several applications, and perhaps quite a number. Do not be disturbed by this, but do try to keep on your schedule from then on. If only once during the day you feel that you were perfectly sincere while you were repeating today’s idea, you can be sure that you have saved yourself many years of effort.

Journal

Above all else I want to see what is real. I want to see what the world is made of and how we constructed it. I want to see what it was supposed to be like before the detour into fear and guilt. I want to see what bodies look like when seeing them without using the body’s eyes. I want to see what it looks like to be one within One.

Above all else, I want to see us as God’s perfect and beautiful creation. I want to see each person I meet without the taint of guilt. I want to see them as if they had just been created out of Godness, untouched by anything not God. I want to see every person as they truly are, and I want to perceive my own perfection as well.

Above all else, I want to see how guilt could never ever have touched me, not in any of my many lives. I want to see the pristine innocence of all of creation. I am not a body; I want to see what it is that I am. I want my perception of all that is to be clear and unmarred by an illusory past or a projected future.

Imagine! What am I, God? I want to remember. I want to see. I am determined to see. Above all else, I want to see.

I took a chance today and talked to someone who is not familiar with these ideas. As part of an ongoing conversation, I suggested that what I seem to be is not what I am. I said that I am created by God like Himself. I think she was still with me so far. I said that God would not have created me to be so fallible, so weak and vulnerable, so mortal. She was still with me though her expression shifted a bit toward confusion, but in for a penny, in for a pound.

I told her that either this body and its story are not what God created, or God is insane. We both agreed that probably God is not insane. So, I told her, this body and its story must not be who I am. She is with me again now, seeing the logic. I then told her that my job is to shed everything about me that is not like God and then the real me will be revealed. Some of the confusion cleared and a little light came on behind her eyes. We both agreed that revealing our true nature was possible and a whole lot easier than having to somehow become like God. Above all else I am determined to see the real me, the me that is like God.

Past Entries
I remember doing this in the early days and knowing that I didn’t really mean it. Then later doing it again and thinking I meant it only to discover I forgot to say these words until the day was completely over. What a disappointment that was! It was also scary to me and I felt guilty. Later still and I had gotten over being scared and much later, I got over feeling guilty when I would forget. I am going to do it today, just to see if I remember. But no matter what I won’t be upset or guilty however it goes. Guilt and fear is what I am undoing.

Above all else, I want to see. I tried it out just to see what rang as true for me. I want to see more than I want to retire. OK, that is true. Another goal I have is to lose weight, but to do so in a permanent way because my mind is healed of the belief that the body is more powerful than the mind. Above that “lofty” goal, I want to see. Ok. I want to see more than I want to lose weight by any means. Ok. Good to go. I want to see more than I want an ice cream cone. Ha ha. Any time I think about weight loss, I start craving ice cream. But I am ok with that one.

Now let’s get down to the hard stuff. I want to see more than I want to have a life free of grief and loss. Yes, I do, but if I were to truly see with Christ Vision, then I would not see grief and loss. That is the thing about this lesson. The ego says that vision requires sacrifice and that is the reason we resist this lesson. Actually, I can’t lose anything of value through vision. I can’t lose anything that matters through vision. How about my life, do I want to see above keeping this body animated? Oh hell yeah! Ha ha. This isn’t life, it is a dream of death. But vision doesn’t even demand this “loss” of us.

I really, truly want to see above all else. I think. I am going to pay attention to what I think is more important. I have a feeling it is going to be something ridiculously unimportant, like distancing myself from someone I don’t like or trust. Or like holding a grievance for something that happens. But if that happens, then I will remind myself that I want to see above all else.