Lesson 146

My mind holds only what I think with God.

“No one can fail who seeks to reach the truth.”

“I loose the world from all I thought it was.”

REVIEW

I have gone through many stages of learning and sometimes I despaired of ever making any progress. I felt hopeless as a student. But I see now that I was moving down my path, sometimes slowly and other times moving at a good clip. I understand now that I was always going at the perfect pace. While I used to be frustrated at my pace and wanted desperately to wake up, I am now much more comfortable with where I am.

I do want to go more deeply into the awakened state, and I yearn for the memory of my Self and of God. But I don’t feel impatient. I also think that for a while there Awakening was my goal only because I saw it as my way out of my discomfort. That won’t work. Yes, contrast helps me see what is working and what is not, and the contrast motivates me to do what I need to do. But anything coming from fear is not going to bring me to the truth.

Here is what changed. I am not running from anything now. I am moving toward something. I am not trying to get away from my own decisions. I am making new decisions and doing this with the Holy Spirit. I am choosing to awaken out of love, not out of fear. Maybe that is why I am so much more comfortable with the situation.

To remember what I know, I must forget what I use to obscure the truth. I must loose the world from all I thought it was, from all I made of it. The world is a place to be something I am not. It is a place for the eternally innocent to pretend they are guilty and then to project the blame on something or someone else so they can pretend they are not guilty at the expense of another aspect of their Self. It is an insane asylum. Why would I not gladly loose it from this insanity?

I am still in the process of loosing the world from all I thought it was, still doing this after all these years. It is easier now and I am not fighting it. I notice something that I am idolizing and I stop. I open myself to God’s Word and let It heal me. I don’t feel guilty for these dark thoughts and so I am able to look and release more easily and more quickly. I want to see the world the way Holy Spirit sees it, so I have to let go of my own view of it. I will not fail because I cannot fail.