Lesson 145
My mind holds only what I think with God.
“Beyond this world there is a world I want.”
“It is impossible to see two worlds.”
Journal
Ultimately, there are no worlds to see, but for now, we have a choice. We can live our lives primarily in the world of ego, listening to that voice, letting ego interpret what we see. Or we can live in the real world. In the real world, we continue to dream but now the dream is a happy one. We know the world is not reality and we know that we are no longer interested in what the ego thinks. We know who we are and we rejoice in that knowledge. But what we cannot do is live in both at the same moment.
I can be aware that my son has pneumonia again and I can be afraid for him. Or I can be aware that my son has pneumonia again and I can accept this unfoldment of his life as perfect for him at this time knowing that it will change and that his essence is unaffected by the body changes.
But I cannot be afraid for him and know he is safe. Two different worlds, two different interpretations of the same situation, but only one will be true for me. I choose carefully as I place my attention on one or another interpretation because my awareness is powerful. My happiness is at stake as is my evolution toward awakening.
Regina’s Tips
It is impossible to see two worlds. Attention will either go out towards the world and thought or it will go in towards awareness. It cannot go in two directions at once. Anything that keeps me from being aware of myself as awareness or as the watcher is a defense against truth for me.
My thoughts
This tip is the one that really stands out for me. When I reject the ego’s interpretation of Toby’s illness, it is an inward seeking that provides the alternate understanding of how to see the experience of a son with repeated bouts of pneumonia. I didn’t come up with that new interpretation by thinking about it. I had to become quiet and allow it to come to me and I could not have received it if I had been focused on the problem and how to fix it.
Past Entry
There is the world I see and the world that the Holy Spirit sees. Both are available to me because both are in my mind, but I can see only one of those worlds in any specific moment. I used to think I had no control over this, that I was just buffeted by the winds of fortune and all I could do was to hold my head above water and hope for the best. Or fight for my life. Or pray to be saved.
But now I see that everything changes when I choose the mind with which I think. If I use the ego mind, the ego will find guilt and fear because that is all it knows to find. If I use the God Mind to think, the Holy Spirit will show me love, because that is all it knows. I see that I will find what I seek.
There was a situation at work. There was a lot of conflict and at first, I felt drawn to it. I wanted to make peace in the office and get everyone on the same page. I thought I could reason with them and show them there is another way. But I was thinking with the ego mind, seeing errors and bad choices, and soon I was finding fault, taking sides and feeling resentful. It felt hopeless. Not only was I not helping, but I was becoming part of the problem.
I stepped back and asked Holy Spirit to lead the way. I asked that He shine the light of truth on the situation so that I could see with His Vision and think with His Mind. Suddenly there was peace in my mind. I saw my brothers in confusion, driven by fear, assaulted by their own thinking. But beneath that outward appearance was the truth of their being and so I couldn’t be fooled by their behavior.
I wasn’t upset by appearances, and I didn’t feel compelled to influence things. I was satisfied to be an island of peace. Anyone can come to my shores if the want, or they can continue to try to fight their way out of their misery. Lord knows I understand that compulsion well enough. But there is nothing to be concerned about. The story will play itself out and the Son of God will remain unchanged.
If no one uses this situation to make a better choice it’s OK, there will be another time. They, too, have both options in their mind and they can and will finally choose the Mind of God with which to think. They are powerful and can delay this choice, but in the end, it is inevitable simply because it is Reality. Only God is real and everything else is not and must fall away.
When I chose to change my mind and start using the God Mind instead of the ego mind, peace just occurred, quickly and perfectly. My mind had been such a jumble of confused thoughts that I could hardly believe the change. Is it always that easy? Yes, I think it is.
When I was a kid my mother used to say I had my head in the clouds. “Oh, there she goes, got her head in the clouds again.” She would say this because I would ask questions that made her uncomfortable. Why are people like this? Is there a God? Why don’t we go to church? I think I lived in Italy once, how could that be? I feel like I’m floating when I wake up in the morning, why? Why did Grandpa die? I could see her cringe. She didn’t know how to answer. I had my head in the clouds was good enough. Now I know that I was dreaming, and seeing little bits of that other world. I always knew there was, “something else.” I always knew that what I saw around me was a shallow representation of something else. Like Myron said in her share I would see the arguments and I would try to be the peacemaker. All that did is upset me. I would go back to my books and find my peace again but remained troubled as to why people were always fighting. Now I know that back then I felt that, ““Beyond this world there is a world I want.” Thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me back then even though I did not know that. I am blessed. Thank You Myron.