Lesson 112

Lesson 112

For morning and evening review:

(93) Light and joy and peace abide in me.

I am the home of light and joy and peace.

I welcome them into the home I share with God,

because I am a part of Him.

(94) I am as God created me.

I will remain forever as I was,

created by the Changeless like Himself.

And I am one with Him, and He with me.

On the hour:

Light and joy and peace abide in me.

On the half hour:

I am as God created me.

Journal

I began my day with meditation in an effort to know my Self. It went better than usual. I think it was because I was sincere about my desire to do this. When I caught myself thinking of something in my life, I would see myself standing before a display window looking in at the story being played out, realize I wasn’t interested and move on toward the light. I reminded myself that knowing my Self is my heart’s desire and that it is both my will and God’s Will so I cannot fail. When I would start to think again, I remembered that I am not interested in thinking. In the past, by this time I would be antsy and jump up, but I didn’t feel that way. I stayed with it for a little longer until it began to feel like a strain. I’m looking forward to doing it again today.

Light and joy and peace abide in me and I am as God created me. Perhaps it would be accurate to say that because I am as God created me, light and joy and peace abide in me. I am the home of peace, the home of joy. Right now, I feel like this is true. I still feel the peace and joy of the meditation. But I am drawn to the idea that I am as God created me.

What God creates is eternally as it was created. I cannot change. I cannot be something God did not create. I cannot change even a tiny little bit. Even as I appear human and feel human, I am as God appearing human and feeling what it is to be human. There is a huge difference in being of God as I show up as human and actually being human. As God, I can experience myself as human but I cannot be human and still be God. God created me as Himself and so I am.

Regina’s Tips

“In order to understand the symbol, one must accept the Love of Christ. One prepares himself to accept that Love BY RECOGNIZING HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND the symbol, and then he ASKS for understanding. By OPENING UP TO RECEIVE UNDERSTANDING WITHOUT JUDGMENT, he opens up to accept the Love of Christ. With that Love comes Christ’s knowledge, for they are the same and inseparable. Then the meaning that is beyond the words is understood as a Light that shines for all who look to see.”

My Thoughts

We don’t all do this the same way. What works for me is to pause and ask for clarity and then to pause again until I feel like writing. I don’t wait too long because I tend to start thinking about it if I do. I just start writing. It might not be clarity at first. It might be what I think I know. But my trust brings clarity.

When I first started this process, I would write for a long time before it was no longer my thinking mind bringing the words. I would delete all that came before. Now, however, after years of doing this, it comes pretty quickly. I contemplate through my writing. The writing keeps me focused and when it comes, I am not aware of anything else. I love this process. It is the best part of my day. I can also write what I think I know. I can write as a writer using my thinking mind. But when I do this it is not as peaceful, and not as joyful or as revealing.

Past Entry

What I want to remember as I do the lesson for today, is that I am not saying something I wish was true. I am stating facts. Light and joy and peace abide in me because God put them there and I am as He created me, changeless, unalterable. I am this forever. So what is this that I seem to be? How can I feel and act so differently than I was created and yet remain unchanged?

It is a dream I am having, an illusion I am experiencing, a memory of something ancient that never truly existed anyway.  It feels so real because I am created exactly like my Father and He is a powerful creator, therefore so am I. I had an idea and it unfolded in brilliant Technicolor and the most awesome 3-D virtual reality that can be imagined. It continues to unfold for me only because I keep thinking it, keep remembering it. Every separation thought is like the tiny mad idea happened all over again and that is how we keep it going.

And that is the problem. We did such a magnificent job that we keep forgetting it is not real. We keep thinking this is really happening, and that scares us. If this is really happening that would mean we had actually undone what God meant to be eternal. I know. That’s a crazy idea, right? But that is the fear that keeps us thinking this world. God doesn’t seem to be here so we feel like we are safe from punishment as long as we are here. Only, there is no “here” as we see it. And this world is not safe. Truly, crazy.

The saving thought, and the reason I continue allowing the Holy Spirit to wake me up is that God is Love. Love would not punish. Love would not even be angry. Love would not create me fearful and guilty. Love would not create me weak and vulnerable. Love would not create me to suffer and die. So this thing I seem to be cannot be my reality. I must be dreaming, and I am ready to wake up.

Today I will remind myself of the truth. I will think about my true nature as the perfect child of a perfect God. I will think about being Love and about how much my Father loves me. I will think about how much I miss my real Life and how much I want to be Home. I will think how blessed I am that I am eternal and unalterable and I will be glad.