This morning I thought of ways I have bound myself to pain and suffering by believing in the laws of the world instead of the laws of Love. Mostly it was a mundane list, but each one is a symbol of my choice to believe in what cannot be true, and thus my desire to remain a separate self with a separate will. In that way, they are all the same and so I put each one on the altar as I noticed it in my mind.
When I got to my son and I thought of his problems that seem crushing. I put that on the altar, too. My mind went to some of the things I believe about him and his situation. I see him suffering more in the future if he doesn’t change his mind about a lot of things. I imagined how bad it could be and I felt like crying. As I put this on the altar, I asked how to see it differently.
In the past, I would envelop him in my holiness and remember that there is nothing my holiness cannot do. I would see him in his holiness. I would bring as many of these kinds of true thoughts to the situation as I could think of. This was done in a kind of desperation because I was afraid. This morning when I asked for a different way to see this, I saw him making new choices. I saw him growing through this situation. I saw his true inner self, the beautiful, loving and heart filled self I know so well, coming forward and I saw him living from that place.
This morning when I asked for a different way to see this, I saw him making new choices. I saw him growing through this situation. I saw his true inner self, the beautiful, loving and heart filled self I know so well, coming forward and I saw him living from that place.
After that vision of him, I sat amazed at how blind I can be. I follow the ego mind like a well-trained dog following its master with no thought to do anything else. I think there is no other place to go. That is what it is like when I get caught up in the ego stories in my mind. How often lately I have not been able to see past the fear stories that I see in my mind.
This morning Holy Spirit showed me that I am perfectly free to choose other stories, truer stories, happier stories. This should be obvious but it was a revelation. It was like I had been asleep dreaming a nightmare and suddenly awoke in relief to see the light of day. The bad dream lost its grip on me. Thank you, Holy Spirit. I won’t forget this. When my son comes to my mind, I will remember how perfect his life story is and how grateful I am that it is leading him to his blessings.
I will see him striding confidently through the situation breaking away from the darkness and into the light with barely a stumble. Thoughts show up, but it is my choice which thoughts I entertain, and I remember that all thought produces form at some level. I will be discerning in my thoughts. Instead of focusing on the thoughts I fear, I will choose the ones I love and want to see take form. This is healing through true prayer.
Dear Myron the simple Act of buying a Kindle to entertain me has acted as a roadblock for my studying the Course in Miracles. Your articles strike deep in my heart Envision is returned again
Ah well, William, put some enlightening and encouraging books on that Kindle. I do entertain myself as well, but I keep it to a certain amount of time, usually at the end of the day. What I have discovered is that I slowly began to desire less entertainment and more enrichment. This occurred naturally, as my mind healed more and more. It is a good catch, though, if entertainment is taking the place of the important work you came here to do.