III. Atonement and Miracles, P 5
5 Error cannot really threaten truth, which can always withstand it. Only the error is actually vulnerable. You are free to establish your kingdom where you see fit, but the right choice is inevitable if you remember this:
Spirit is in a state of grace forever.
Your reality is only spirit.
Therefore you are in a state of grace forever.
Atonement undoes all errors in this respect, and thus uproots the source of fear. Whenever you experience God’s reassurances as threat, it is always because you are defending misplaced or misdirected loyalty. When you project this to others you imprison them, but only to the extent to which you reinforce errors they have already made. This makes them vulnerable to the distortions of others, since their own perception of themselves is distorted. The miracle worker can only bless them, and this undoes their distortions and frees them from prison.
My mistaken beliefs cannot change anything. They cannot threaten truth in any way. The truth is true forever and nothing can alter it. Whew!! Since I can rest easy knowing that my mistaken thoughts are doing no real harm, I can afford to look at them without fear or guilt. I can ask the Holy Spirit to look with me and to correct my thinking where I have strayed from truth.
It is perfectly ok, and perfectly safe to build my own little kingdom outside of Truth, because it is only a sand castle, easily washed away by the desire to choose again. In the meantime I can play in it for as long as I can stand the pain. When I am tired of suffering, I can remember the truth, that I am Spirit and in a state of grace forever. This remembrance undoes all I think I have done and brings me to peace. The decision not to forget this brings me out of the illusion and to God.
Ways I have practiced making the right choice. (The following is a journal entry from 2013)
I awoke to the beginnings of a migraine and my first thought was, “What triggered this?” There is an interesting list I could go through, checking off possibilities and crossing out the ones that could not apply. I could start a regimen of medication after I decide if its going to get bad enough for that, and after I decide if it is worth the side effects. This is one place I could establish my kingdom and it would be ok if that is what I wanted. I’ve done that many times.
My second thought was, “The only thing that triggered this migraine is the denial of God, the denial of Self. Holy Spirit, please heal my mind.” I noticed when I did this that the pain began to recede. I also noticed that it would start coming back and I would have to decide again where I want my kingdom. It seems I am not entirely through with migraines. It seems that I still see value in them.
Not that the migraines are special. There are many other forms of the same thing that I use to represent the desire to establish a little kingdom outside Truth and to be the ruler of this kingdom. I get to decide when I have a migraine and how deal with it. I get to decide how the denial of God shows up in form.
Maybe it will be a problem with one of my children. That’s always good for some drama. Or a concern about money. I just bought a house and I notice that I entertain the mind for hours during the day making plans and creating problems, deciding for myself what I should do about these problems that have not even showed up in form. Yet.
The ways in which I get to choose between ruling this odd kingdom of mine and being at peace seem to be absolutely endless. However, something has happened to bring this to an end. One thing that happened is that I began to realize that all the problems I seem to have are the same problem. A migraine is no different than a shortage of money or a disagreement with a friend. The problems look different in form, but they are all sourced by the same belief, that I have separated from God and that I am guilty for what I have done.
As it turns out, I have not separated from God in any way except in my imagination. It is not possible to separate from God. It is not possible to change Reality in any way. Truth is true and is eternal. So I am not guilty. I am forever innocent because that is how I was created, and what God creates cannot be altered. I am saved from this self-inflicted condemnation I have been living under by the simple truth that:
Spirit is in a state of grace forever.
My reality is only spirit.
Therefore I am in a state of grace forever.
To be continued tomorrow.
PS. I no longer believe in migraines.