II. Revelation, Time and Miracles, P 3
3 Awe should be reserved for revelation, to which it is perfectly and correctly applicable. It is not appropriate for miracles because a state of awe is worshipful, implying that one of a lesser order stands before his Creator. You are a perfect creation, and should experience awe only in the Presence of the Creator of perfection. The miracle is therefore a sign of love among equals. Equals should not be in awe of one another because awe implies inequality. It is therefore an inappropriate reaction to me. An elder brother is entitled to respect for his greater experience, and obedience for his greater wisdom. He is also entitled to love because he is a brother, and to devotion if he is devoted. It is only my devotion that entitles me to yours. There is nothing about me that you cannot attain. I have nothing that does not come from God. The difference between us now is that I have nothing else. This leaves me in a state which is only potential in you.
There are a couple of things in this paragraph that jump out at me. Jesus explains that only our Creator deserves our awe. I used to be pretty awe struck by many of the teachers. They seemed to know so much more than me and to be so much closer to awakening. I could barely imagine being where they were. And people who could channel Jeshua, or take down whole books of information they didn’t know before it came to them, seemed pretty awesome to me. I thought they were special, and I was awed. And certainly I thought Jesus was the most awesome of all.
Now I see that we are all just brothers and sisters, part of the same whole. Some of us are a bit further along than others, but we are all headed in the same direction and we will all get there (and evidently already have). When that happens (when we each become aware of it) the apparent differences will disappear. I will see no difference between any of us, only more of the same. I will feel only love for my Divine Siblings.
Our Creator is awesome and it is appropriate to feel awe in His presence. I don’t think I will have any problem in working up some awe in that case. I wonder what God is like. Shoot, I don’t even know what I am like. I am still too identified with form to imagine formlessness in any real way, especially as it applies to me. I still have too much that is not love to imagine Love as my identity.
To think of God and to know that He is pure Love and nothing else, well, that really is awesome. To truly appreciate God, though, I have to let go completely, the idea that there is something in God that is not love. Something that is resentful of my wanderings, something that believes punishment is an appropriate response to error and so I have reason to expect punishment from God. I cannot truly love that of which I am afraid. When I think of God as pure Love, awe means wonder to me. When I think of Him as punishing, awe means fear to me.
Using the idea of Jesus, the appropriate response is not awe, but love and appreciation. I imagine standing before Jesus and I feel those things, and also gratitude that is so intense it makes me cry even as I think of it now. I’m pretty awestruck that he was able to awaken without A Course in Miracles, but that’s not the same kind of awe that is reserved for God. I am doing my level best to be obedient because I want what he has. I am absolutely devoted. If he were standing in front of me I would hug him. A long time. And with a lot of fervor. Grateful. Really grateful.
The last two sentences say it all.
I have nothing that does not come from God. The difference between us now is that I have nothing else. This leaves me in a state which is only potential in you.
Jesus and I are the same, we are both a part of God and a part of each other. The difference between us. . . the temporary difference, is that I still have all this other stuff in my head that blocks my awareness of our wholeness and blocks my awareness of my purity. What this means is that my true nature is mostly not real to me, but is something I believe in because Jesus tells me that it is real.
I do the work because I trust Jesus. As I do the work, my mind becomes more and more clear and there is less to block my true self. Soon I will join Jesus in the sweet clarity of my mind and absolutely know my true identity. What was potential will be actuality.