Introduction, P 2
2 You can speak from the spirit or from the ego, as you choose. If you speak from spirit you have chosen to “Be still and know that I am God.” These words are inspired because they reflect knowledge. If you speak from the ego you are disclaiming knowledge instead of affirming it, and are thus dis-spiriting yourself. Do not embark on useless journeys, because they are indeed in vain. The ego may desire them, but spirit cannot embark on them because it is forever unwilling to depart from its Foundation.
Yesterday I joined with others as I committed to allowing the Holy Spirit to reveal my innocence to me. I woke up with that commitment on my mind. I renewed it as I will all during the day. I renew it because there is still the temptation within my mind to take useless journeys. I saw this right away as I was dressing. I packed in a hurry and didn’t pay close attention to what I chose. I looked at the outfit chosen for today and wondered if the shirt and pants really looked good together. As I did so, I noticed that I felt slightly anxious about this.
Maybe on another day I would not have noticed the anxiety. I would have just shrugged my shoulders at the problem, because after all, what could I do about it? But today is different. Today I want to remove all blocks to seeing my innocence. I opened my mind to Holy Spirit, and I saw that concern about my fashion choices is really guilt. I am guilty for making, or possibly making, a bad decision about this outfit. I am guilty of not living up to the expectations of myself and others. I have failed as a fashion maven. ~smile~
Wow! And my day has just started! There is a twinge of fear in my mind as the ego objects to the whole project. “This is too much trouble,” it says. “This doesn’t even matter. “What will happen when I look at the “big” stuff,” it asks. The ego warns that I will wear myself out doing this. It warns that I won’t feel innocent if I look at all this, and in fact, I will just feel guiltier than ever. My response is that I am happy to be graced with the clarity to see the blocks to my awareness of Love’s presence, and I am deeply grateful to know that the illusion of guilt is easily undone with the Holy Spirit’s help.
I see in my mind, two altars. One of the altars is a shabby affair that sits in the shadows. This is the ego’s altar. When I worship at this altar I come away with more doubt and uncertainty than I brought to it. If I bring my concerns about my clothing choices to this altar, I will receive its “gifts” of guilt, fear, unworthiness and anger. All day I will look through the filter of those beliefs and I will see attack everywhere I look. I will project my beliefs onto my innocent brothers and in my mind they will be transformed into enemies who are judging me. I could only look forward to an exhausting day of defense and attack.
I have another altar though. This altar sits in the light and radiates love. It is a soft and steady light that never wavers. The ego tries to dissuade me from that altar. It warns that I am unworthy of the light and my guilt will be exposed if I approach it. But when I turn from the dark altar and instead place my fears and guilt in that brilliant light they vanish. My burden is relieved and I am left feeling light and happy. This is a gift I carry with me throughout the day and that will be shared with my brothers.
There may be many opportunities this day to choose the path I want to journey, to choose the altar at which I will worship. I pray for grace to see clearly the choice being offered me. I pray for strength to not weaken in my commitment. I pray for help if I am uncertain and clarity if I am confused. I will do my part as I choose to take no more useless journeys, and I am willing to do it with ease and with joy. To that objective, Jesus reminds me that I am responsible for what I see, but never guilty for it.