C 13: IX. The Cloud of Guilt, P 3

IX. The Cloud of Guilt, P 3

3 The world can give you only what you gave it, for being nothing but your own projection, it has no meaning apart from what you found in it and placed your faith in. Be faithful unto darkness and you will not see, because your faith will be rewarded as you gave it. You will accept your treasure, and if you place your faith in the past, the future will be like it. Whatever you hold dear you think is yours. The power of your valuing will make it so.

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This paragraph reminds me of one of my favorite lessons. Jesus says that the world can give me only what I gave it, for being nothing but my own projection, it has no meaning apart from what I found in it and placed my faith in. In Lesson 325, he says this is salvation’s keynote: What I see reflects a process in my mind, which starts with my idea of what I want. From there, the mind makes up an image of the thing the mind desires, judges valuable, and therefore seeks to find. These images are then projected outward, looked upon, esteemed as real and guarded as one’s own.

The world is what I want it to be. I can tell what I want, because I see it in the world. I keep the world as I want it by desiring it to be that way, by valuing it, by placing my faith in it. The sooner I accept this, the better. Pretending that it is not my fault is not going to change anything, and I do want to change it. I know that I have wanted drama and suffering because I have had that. On the other hand, I have asked for and received healing and so I also have joy and peace and abundance.

I have spent most of my life feeling like I was powerless and a victim, and for most of my life that was my experience. I used to think that I felt like a victim because I was a victim. Now I understand that I believed in victimhood and so I was a victim. It all came from my mind, the experience of being a victim occurred because it is what I wanted. Jesus can’t point out my insanity enough, it seems.

All of this points to me being very powerful indeed. I make the world I see through simply desiring it to be what it is. I keep it in place by giving what I see value. And by placing my faith in the past, I guarantee the future will be the same. I do this to myself. I can also change it myself by deciding to go to the Holy Spirit for advice instead of to the ego.

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