ACIM Chapter 11. I. The Gifts of Fatherhood, P 3-5

ACIM Chapter 11. I. The Gifts of Fatherhood, P 3-5

I. The Gifts of Fatherhood, P 3

3 If you were not part of God, His Will would not be unified. Is this conceivable? Can part of His Mind contain nothing? If your place in His Mind cannot be filled by anyone except you, and your filling it was your creation, without you there would be an empty place in God’s Mind. Extension cannot be blocked, and it has no voids. It continues forever, however much it is denied. Your denial of its reality may arrest it in time, but not in eternity. That is why your creations have not ceased to be extended, and why so much is waiting for your return.

This paragraph intensifies my yearning for my return to sanity. If I could be outside God, there would be an empty place in God’s Mind, and this is impossible. There is nothing to fear at the idea of return, for I am already there and do so long for it. The part of the mind that wants the world is still resisting but weakening daily. Each day, I renew my vow to surrender all to the love of Jesus, and this has created a welcome shift.

I continue to reinforce the truth in my mind.

God created me, and what He creates remains part of Him. I am an idea in the Mind of God, and ideas leave not their Source. The whole reason for making the idea of time and space was so that I could pretend to be someplace else for a while, but that is all that happened. I am pretending that I can be outside God even though there is no outside God. I am pretending to be in time awhile even though there is only eternity.

This illusion I made provides me with a mental landscape to play out impossible ideas within my mind. While this is happening, Reality remains unchanged. There is no empty place in God where I used to be. God has not stopped extending me, and I have not stopped extending my creations. Everything is as it always was and always will be. In fact, “was” and “will be” are meaningless words outside the illusion of time.

So much is waiting for my return and I also long for my return. That is why I was drawn to A Course in Miracles and am vigilant in practicing all it offers me. I long for Home, for eternity, for God. I have been allowing the Holy Spirit to slowly back me out of this illusion so that I can know that my return was always accomplished. How loving is our Father that He would have my return to sanity be so gentle and yet inevitable.

4 I. The Gifts of Fatherhood, P 4

4 Waiting is possible only in time, but time has no meaning. You who made delay can leave time behind simply by recognizing that neither beginnings nor endings were created by the Eternal, Who placed no limits on His creation or upon those who create like Him. You do not know this simply because you have tried to limit what He created, and so you believe that all creation is limited. How, then, could you know your creations, having denied infinity?

I still feel like I am waiting to forgive, be peaceful, and wake up. There seems to be a time lag between choosing chaos and choosing peace in whatever form the chaos takes. I approach the veil, even peek behind it, and then I wait, thinking, “I’m not there yet.” I say that I live in God, but it feels like I live in time.

Lately, I have discovered the thought that now is the time. I don’t look at it too closely because what if it is not true? Or what if it is true? And yet, when else could one awaken except now? What other time is there, really? God is eternal, and therefore, so am I. God is all there is, and so there is only eternity, and in eternity, there is no time, no beginning, no ending.

Within my mind, I have tried to make eternity into something else.

I have transformed formlessness into form and placed gaps of nothing between the forms so that now it appears that there is a separation between them. I have imagined it began and then it ends and then I have imagined little gaps between one event and another and called it time. And now, one moment is separate from another moment, or so it seems. I have used the power of God to distort creation, to place limits where there is only limitlessness. I then called it reality and believed in it.

Now, I wonder why I cannot remember my Creator or my creations. My mind is not as profoundly split as it once was, and I have begun to see through my illusions. Still, here I am. But I am choosing peace, and in choosing peace, I am making a silent place in my mind, a place where I can meet my God.

I am learning to meet each confused thought, each chaotic moment in my life, with the desire for God’s peace. Sometimes, it feels like I am gritting my teeth as I insist that my mind belongs to God, not the ego. But I know that will pass with “time.” Even now, I begin to meet each false thought with more peace, and when I do, it feels joyful rather than a struggle.

Here is the hardest part of this process.

I could not believe that all I needed to do to have peace was to choose peace. The ego mind fights this idea and calls it impossible. When I am upset about something, the ego wants to stay in that story, be angry about it, feel unfairly treated, and fix it. I want only to disregard the story as irrelevant and choose peace.

It sometimes feels like Myron is struggling with the Angel of Peace, fighting for the right to remain in her righteous anger. I watch and feel the turmoil as if it is real and important. I ask the Holy Spirit to heal this rift in my mind, to remove these insane thoughts. Sometimes, I ask to see the belief that is being played out here.

If I follow the belief to its origin, it always takes me to the same place. I think I accomplished the impossible. I made time and space and now there is a gap between Love and me that is too big to cross. And alone it is, but I am not alone. The Holy Spirit is my bridge and Jesus is my companion. Each time I use It to cross into peace, the imagined gap closes a bit more.

5 I. The Gifts of Fatherhood, P 5

5 The laws of the universe do not permit contradiction. What holds for God holds for you. If you believe you are absent from God, you will believe that He is absent from you. Infinity is meaningless without you, and you are meaningless without God. There is no end to God and His Son, for we are the universe. God is not incomplete, and He is not childless. Because He did not will to be alone, He created a Son like Himself. Do not deny Him His Son, for your unwillingness to accept His Fatherhood has denied you yours. See His creations as His Son, for yours were created in honor of Him. The universe of love does not stop because you do not see it, nor have your closed eyes lost the ability to see. Look upon the glory of His creation, and you will learn what God has kept for you.

I had to wait until I was through crying before I could write anything.

I cried in joy and in sadness, joy that this is true and sadness that I cannot remember this. We are the universe, God and I and my creations; we are the universe of love. Oh my God, I long to remember this, to feel it, to know it. And from what Jesus says, this must be pretty simple since the universe of love does not stop just because I can’t see it, and my closed eyes have not lost the ability to see.

Everything real is still there and operating as usual. God still exists, and we still are in God and part of God. Our creations still exist and still love us. We have closed our eyes and imagined a world that is not love and are pretending it is real, pretending so well that we believe in our own illusion. How different our world will look when we accept the truth and wake up, first within the world and then from the world. And awakening from the world we will find ourselves back in God’s loving embrace, back with our creations, back in the universe of love. We will discover we never left except in our imagination.

“See His creations as His Son...”

When I read this phrase, I thought about something that has been occurring to me more and more often. I will see someone, a stranger maybe, and though the first impulse might be to judge, I am also aware of something else. I think, “That is me standing there,” and a rush of love comes with that realization. It doesn’t stay yet, but it was real for a moment. I am beginning to accept that we, the many of us, are one. I know I have said this, and I have thought this, but now it has found a home in my mind, and certainty is building. As I begin to see everyone as myself, I am getting closer to the memory of Love that is still in my mind.

I have enjoyed this recording from YouTube. It makes me think of being one with the universe and I imagine this is how we made the world. CLICK HERE to see what you think.