VI. Waking to Redemption, P 10
10 God’s Son is saved. Bring only this awareness to the Sonship, and you will have a part in the redemption as valuable as mine. For your part must be like mine if you learn it of me. If you believe that yours is limited, you are limiting mine. There is no order of difficulty in miracles because all of God’s Sons are of equal value, and their equality is their oneness. The whole power of God is in every part of Him, and nothing contradictory to His Will is either great or small. What does not exist has no size and no measure. To God all things are possible. And to Christ it is given to be like the Father.
Journal
Here are the words that stood out to me: “The whole power of God is in every part of Him… .” I am created by God and so part of Him. This means that the whole power of God is in me. This is the reason I can have an experience unlike God and that experience be so elaborate and consistent that I am able to believe in it, which, of course, was the point in having it.
It is also the reason that I can awaken from the experience at any time. I have the whole power of God in me. That has not and could not change. All the times I have thought that it was just too hard to change my mind I was just kidding myself. It was all part of the story of “unlike God.” I remember when it finally occurred to me that the Course was for more than having a nicer life, and, instead, I began to ask for release from this life.
I started asking that my mind be healed instead of that some perceived need be met. Getting things, it turned out, was a cinch. Changing my mind, however, seemed nearly impossible. I can remember my frustration as I would ask God, “Why does it always have to be so hard!” I couldn’t understand why He didn’t just shake me awake. Why couldn’t He make this easier?
Now I see that for God to do this for me, He would have to believe that I was not powerful enough to do it myself. If He believed that, it would be true. If it were true that I did not have all the power of God, then I would not be His Son. I would not be part of Him. I cannot be less than God and still be His creation, because God creates through extension.
At times I still wish that it was easier, but now I understand it is only my own resistance that makes it seem hard. That is why I choose surrender every chance I get. I surrender the separate self for my true identity as God’s Son. I have discovered that this is a sweet surrender with no loss and no sacrifice. I am learning to love surrender and the freedom it accords me. I look forward to the next opportunity to master this decision because each time I choose surrender I am closer to knowing my Self.