VII. The Totality of the Kingdom, P 5
5 The gift of life is yours to give, because it was given you. You are unaware of your gift because you do not give it. You cannot make nothing live, since nothing cannot be enlivened. Therefore, you are not extending the gift you both have and are, and so you do not know your being. All confusion comes from not extending life, because that is not the Will of your Creator. You can do nothing apart from Him, and you do do nothing apart from Him. Keep His way to remember yourself, and teach His way lest you forget yourself. Give only honor to the Sons of the living God, and count yourself among them gladly.
Whatever is not of God is not life. This thing I call my life is nothing because it is unlike God in every way, and so, though I made it, I cannot enliven it. This is why I am not joyful and at peace. It is why I live with a sense of loss and why I believe I can suffer and die. In my deepest heart I know that I am not what I seem, and I feel that lack. I feel like something is wrong, even though I have done all this to hide that fact from myself. To enliven is my true will because it is God’s Will and not to extend life is painful.
How do I amend this error? First I recognize that I am not actually creating anything at all. I am only pretending to create. Next, I recognize that what I call creativity is just a shadow of what I do when I acknowledge my true nature. The world with its bodies and its wonders seem amazing to me, so amazing I can hardly believe I have anything to do with it, and yet, it is nothing. I did, indeed, with my brothers make this world, and yet, it pales into nothingness when seen next to my true creations. And since it was made outside creation it is nothing.
All of the depression, rage, suffering and death that we know as our lives is the result of not allowing the memory of our Selves to surface in our minds. We miss who we are. We long to be with our Creator and our creations. We long to enliven as God enlivens because it is our nature. We seem to rage against the world but we are really raging against our self-imposed limitations because they are not natural to us.
When I read in the Course that I am among the Sons of the living God, it never fails to bring tears to my eyes. These tears are partly because I am so happy to be reminded, but they are also tears of frustration and grief because I don’t remember what that is like. I am told the way to remember, though, and in remembering I will naturally turn away from the illusion.
Jesus says this: “Give only honor to the Sons of the living God, and count yourself among them gladly.” I will remember to honor my brothers for what they are today, because this is how I return myself to reality and know myself as the Son of the living God. I look forward to the many opportunities to honor each of us.
“Holy Spirit, please help me to remember this when I am tempted to judge, and when I let my mind wander to illusions. When I look at a brother and see only a body I don’t know and don’t care about, help me remember who it is that stands before me, so that I might honor this Son of the living God. When I am tempted to see my transgressions in time as if they could change me in defiance of my Creator, help me to surrender to the Truth, to my holy Self as defined by God.”