I. The Last Step, P 7
7 God does not take steps, because His accomplishments are not gradual. He does not teach, because His creations are changeless. He does nothing last, because He created first and for always. It must be understood that the word “first” as applied to Him is not a time concept. He is first in the sense that He is the First in the Holy Trinity Itself. He is the Prime Creator, because He created His co-creators. Because He did, time applies neither to Him nor to what He created. The “last step” that God will take was therefore true in the beginning, is true now, and will be true forever. What is timeless is always there, because its being is eternally changeless. It does not change by increase, because it was forever created to increase. If you perceive it as not increasing you do not know what it is. You also do not know Who created it. God does not reveal this to you because it was never hidden. His light was never obscured, because it is His Will to share it. How can what is fully shared be withheld and then revealed?
I don’t know what to say about this. God is not something I can put into words or even understand. My mind is too firmly rooted in time and space right now. What I can say is that God does not hide Himself from me and that He is always available. It is I who is hiding from Him. I continue to remove the blocks in my mind that keep me from knowing what is clearly meant to be accessible to me.
The Course tells us that God takes the last step and then tells us that God does not take steps. The last step taken by God is just a way that we can understand; it is using words to describe something we cannot understand through words. I accept that now, because I no longer have a strong desire to use my ego mind to work things out.
I’m ok with not understanding in the usual way. I am willing to wait until I am ready for the thoughts of God to be revealed to me, knowing from experience that I don’t have to do anything to make this happen. When I am ready for a truth, it will simply be there. “Jesus, is there anything you want me to know about this?”
Jesus: While you are not God, the Prime Creator, you are like God in every other way. You are all that God is and you have all the creative power that God has. You are part of God and in God. That is all that I can tell you about your relationship to God at this time. What is important for you to know is that while you are identical to God, God is First. He created you, but you cannot create Him. This is the difference and it is a most important difference to you at this time because this is a point of confusion for the separated ones. To see themselves as separate they must necessarily believe that they created themselves.
When I say “you” are like God in every way, I am not speaking of the ego personality self that you most closely identify with, even now. I am speaking of the “you” that is one holy Self. It is the We, the Christ, that I speak of. But that is you and you will know that as yourself when you are no longer confused, just as I know my Self now. At that time you will understand, without the limitation imposed by words, what I am saying to you. In the meantime, it is useful for you to know that what you understand now stands somewhere between wrong and woefully incomplete. Be satisfied with that little bit of understanding and simply continue to follow Guidance until you are out of the wilderness of your confused thinking.