When you have experienced in relationship with anyone or anything a moment of bliss, a moment of a peace that forever passes all understanding, a moment of fulfillment so sweet and so sublime that no word could touch it, much less express it, what you have experienced is only the flow of the Love of God through you. That person or thing did not cause it. I was caused because, for just a moment, you stepped out of your drama, you stepped out of your dream, and allowed the Truth to be lived.
Then, of course, you tricked yourself into believing, “God, that was so sweet! That was the best thing I’ve ever tasted. It must have come from you. Get over here! I need you!” If ever you believe you need anything or anyone, rest assured, in that moment you are living in delusion. Jeshua, The Way of Mastery
What I learned
As I read this I thought of my daughter, Susan. She was just home from the hospital and so tiny and so precious. I was holding her against me so that I could feel her warmth and soft, soft baby skin, and at the same time, I could look at her little head covered in downy hair. I began telling her how much I loved her and how I was going to take care of her and be a good mom to her. I had shifted her to my shoulder. She rested in perfect stillness on me and when I stopped talking she turned her head and her lips brushed my cheek. I was so touched that I just sat and cried. She was not old enough to turn her head. She shouldn’t have been ale to do that. It was as if she were saying to me that she loved me too and that she knew I would be a good mother to her. It was one of the sweetest most loving moments in my life.
Then, of course, I decided that Susan was the cause of that moment, and that the overwhelming sense of love I felt came from her. I decided that I needed her to be in my life, to keep her body and her love near me. From that need arose fear. What if something happened to her? What if I wasn’t a good mom? What if she didn’t love me anymore? What if she went away? And of course, she did. She fell in love and moved away.
When she fell in love it was very hard for me to be accepting of her partner, Jen. Jen seemed to be the thief in the night who stole the love of my daughter. Suddenly Susan was busy and had little time for me. She gave all her attention to the thief. I was left bereft of that sweet love that I thought came only from her. I had my other children and each of them offered their own form of that same sweet love, but it was tainted now because I knew how fragile it was.
It took a long time for me to release the resentment I had for Jen and learn to love her as much as I do Susan. In the process of doing this I gained an understanding of the meaning of special relationships. I also have begun to realize that I will never be one who is awake as long as I continue to see individuals as the source of love and joy. Now when my little granddaughter holds me tight and kisses my cheek, I know that this is Love passing through her and through me and onto the next one who stands before me and on and on. Love is eternal and unlimited. It does not bestow itself on certain ones but flows freely through all. And it never stops flowing. I will never run out of love because I am love created by Love.
I don’t need any one person, nor any thing, to feel love. When I think I do, I am delusional and I ask the Holy Spirit to heal my mind.
All quotes are used by kind permission of the Shanti Christo Foundation. To buy a copy of this profound book visit their website at www.shantichristo.com. I invite your thoughts and comments.