Desire, in time, is cultivated through intention.
What I learned
It is not enough to recognize my desire. In order to make use of this recognition I must grow it with intention. Intention sets it in the soil of my mind and fertilizes it. As I visualize this process I think of all the plants I have allowed to die because I did not follow up. I start with an intention to grow a beautiful plant and allow myself to become distracted by other projects and fail to follow through. This is also what happens to my intention to awaken.
I begin the day with my meditation and I think about my purpose. I journal, I talk to the Holy Spirit and listen as well. I am ready for the day and looking forward to more healing. Then life becomes a distraction rather than an opportunity for that healing. I forget the purpose of all those moments. I begin to believe that my purpose is to make the next appointment, to find a place to eat, to take care of my body, to get people to accept and like me and on and on. I forget that each of those activities have a single purpose; to become moments of healing; to help me awaken.
It doesn’t matter how often I forget my intention. Forgetting my intention becomes my healing moment when I realize what I have done. The ego mind wants to use this moment to reinforce guilt, but the Holy Spirit uses it for my one purpose. All I have to do is turn my face to Him rather than to the ego. The more often I bring my focus back to my intention, the stronger that intention becomes. There is no failure, only opportunities.
All quotes are used by kind permission of the Shanti Christo Foundation. To buy a copy of this profound book visit their website at www.shantichristo.com. I invite your thoughts and comments.