Lesson 251

LESSON 251

I am in need of nothing but the truth.

I sought for many things, and found despair. Now do I seek but one, for in that one is all I need, and only what I need. All that I sought before I needed not, and did not even want. My only need I did not recognize. But now I see that I need only truth. In that all needs are satisfied, all cravings end, all hopes are finally fulfilled and dreams are gone. Now have I everything that I could need. Now have I everything that I could want. And now at last I find myself at peace.

And for that peace, our Father, we give thanks. What we denied ourselves You have restored, and only that is what we really want.

 

Journal

I am in agreement with this lesson. From the truth come all things that are needed. From the truth comes joy, love, and peace. What more could I ask for? I get caught up in the story from time to time and think I need something else, but I always eventually realize I am wrong about that.

I used to think I wanted money. Why? Because I thought money would bring happiness, peace of mind. It didn’t. Everything I have ever thought I wanted was because I thought it would bring me joy, love and or peace. I’m ready to bypass all that and just go straight to what I want. The only way to get there is to accept the truth of who I am.

Regina’s Tips

Today is a day to give willingness to know truth. Stay in the heart today. Review the teachings above from A Course in Miracles and NTI throughout the day. Ask yourself questions like, “If this is not reality—if I am deluded in everything I see and believe—do I want to know truth?”

Past Entries

I say I want only the truth but then I negate that desire as I give my attention and my belief to what denies the truth. The truth is I have chosen to be where I am, doing what I am doing, having the experience I am having. But when I don’t care for my choices, I still sometimes blame others for them. I forsake myself and then ask God why He forsook me.

I occasionally still choose to suffer and then direct my anger and disappointment at whoever is playing the supporting role in my little drama of the moment. I don’t really care, as long as I have someone on whom I can project the blame. Anytime I see blame, in myself or anyone else, I have chosen to believe sin is real.

In projecting the blame, I deny the truth that I am the maker of my dream world. I deny my power and my magnificence. As I blame my brothers and sisters for my unhappiness, I deny the truth, that we are one. I blind myself to their power and magnificence as well. So all along, I say I need only the truth and then I ask for something else.

“How long, O Son of God, will you maintain the game of sin?” Not long now, because I have become willing to see what I am doing, and I have become willing to be healed. Each time I notice that I am asking for sin instead of truth and then change my mind, my mind opens a little more to reality and I move us all nearer the Kingdom.

I have finally reached the point that I don’t deny the truth in these ways all the time, and in fact, I seldom do this anymore. I have learned to be very vigilant for those times that I do, and I am very quick to change my mind. What I notice now are the quick automatic judgments that I quickly release. However, there is still doubt in my mind that I am holy and powerful, or even that I am a good and faithful student and teacher.

I know this is the ego mind planting doubts and uncertainties, but I have believed in the vulnerable and weak ego self for so long that it is strange to think of myself differently. Every lesson, however, brings me closer to the truth. I am beginning to see myself detached from the character I play in this story of Myron, and so, I am beginning to see myself detached from the ego.

For some reason this morning, as I sat at my computer reading the lesson for the day I was plagued with thoughts of discontent. This hasn’t been happening lately and so it was a surprise. Perhaps it was an ego response to the thought that I would want only the truth. It was a simple thing. I was wishing I was done with a project and on to something else I like better.

This kind of discontent, this belief that I need something else within the world, is like an insidious disease that spreads quickly throughout the day, robbing me of peace and the joy I normally in find everyday activities. It makes me feel like a victim, weak and vulnerable. Before you know it, I am living in fear as nothing seems to go right and I forget all about the truth as I just try to survive the day.

But this isn’t going to happen now. I have come too far, learned too much. I felt the touch of freedom and sweet release as I stopped listening to the ego’s interpretation of life and asked the Holy Spirit to be my guide. So, I am accepting today just as it appears to me. I will be watching my mind for any backsliding and when I find it, I will do a quick restorative and return to sanity.

I am God’s Son, part of the Christ and loved and cherished by my Creator. My mind is powerful and I am very holy. My holiness envelops the world and there is nothing my holiness cannot do. I deny anything not of God the power to affect me. I place myself in Your capable hands, Holy Spirit and accept Your Voice as the only voice I will hear today. I want nothing but the truth, and so it is.

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