ACIM Daily Lesson: Workbook 22 Year 2020

ACIM Workbook Lesson 22

What I see is a form of vengeance.

W-pI.22.1. Today’s idea accurately describes the way anyone who holds attack thoughts in his mind must see the world. 2 Having projected his anger onto the world, he sees vengeance about to strike at him. 3 His own attack is thus perceived as self defense. 4 This becomes an increasingly vicious circle until he is willing to change how he sees. 5 Otherwise, thoughts of attack and counter-attack will preoccupy him and people his entire world. 6 What peace of mind is possible to him then?

W-pI.22.2. It is from this savage fantasy that you want to escape. 2 Is it not joyous news to hear that it is not real? 3 Is it not a happy discovery to find that you can escape? 4 You made what you would destroy; everything that you hate and would attack and kill. 5 All that you fear does not exist.

W-pI.22.3. Look at the world about you at least five times today, for at least a minute each time. 2 As your eyes move slowly from one object to another, from one body to another, say to yourself:

3 I see only the perishable.
4 I see nothing that will last.
5 What I see is not real.
6 What I see is a form of vengeance.

7 At the end of each practice period, ask yourself:

8 Is this the world I really want to see?

9 The answer is surely obvious.

Initial Insight: Jesus is telling us in another way that that world is a representation of our beliefs. If we hold attack thoughts in our minds, we will see attack everywhere we look. We don’t have to do this. If we are willing to give up our judgments and our grievances, we can see the real world and it will be such a relief.

Daily Application: One night as I was getting ready for bed, I noticed that my ego-mind was writing stories. I was having a conversation with the hotel clerk about some deficiencies in the room and I was defending my stance. This made up conversation was an example of the way attack thoughts in the mind are projected onto the world. There is actually nothing wrong with this room and there was not actually a conversation going on with a hotel clerk. Just my mind busy trying to project my anger.

I stopped myself from continuing the attack and defend conversation with the hotel clerk, but before you know it, I was having another made-up moment in my mind, attacking someone else. As long as we have attack thoughts in our mind we will project anger onto the world and it will seem as if the world is taking vengeance on us. The fearful mind is a virtual vengeance machine, churning out attack and defense scenarios endlessly. As Jesus has been telling us from Lesson 1, the thought comes first, then the effect. I had to have had anger in my mind before I saw something to be angry about in my world.

Sometimes the conversations are not just in my mind, of course. Sometimes I argue with someone out loud. Sometimes I hear words from another person and interpret them as an attack on me. Sometimes I feel justified in defending myself. In each case, there is another way to see these things. Even if the person intends to attack me, it is possible to see the attack as a call for love, that is, to see his words as just his fearful thoughts being projected onto me. I understand confusion and fear and can have compassion for the one who feels this way rather than anger at the projection.

I don’t have these angry conversations very much anymore. The reason for the change is that I finally realized that my anger and guilt and fear were all in my mind and they only appeared to be in the world because I projected them there. I always get what I want and since my mind had been filled with thoughts of victimhood and grievances, my world was filled with proof of this. If I am afraid of loss or lack, this is interpreted by the mind as what I want since that is what I think about a lot and so that is what I receive, loss and lack in many forms.

Learning that this is the way I make the world I see, I also learned that with the Holy Spirit’s help, I could change my mind. I have a choice about what I choose to believe and that if I ask Him for help, He will heal my mind of those painful choices. It took a while for the desire for peace and happiness to replace the desire for chaos and guilt and fear, but persistence paid off and I live a different life now.

Insights from Holy Spirit: When the mind is healed of fear there is only love and that love is extended to everyone with whom you come into contact. This is a miracle and it is the way you save the world. As you have come to realize, all that is needed is to learn to recognize that your thoughts are being projected outward and they make up your world. Then it is easy to see what is valuable and what is not.

Those thoughts that express chaos are not of value to you and you can give them to Me and I will remove them from your mind. Those thoughts that express peace and happiness are the only thoughts that are valuable and without the fear thoughts, you will experience the world differently no matter what seems to be happening. Your part is to release to me the thoughts you no longer want and let me do the rest.

Gratitude: I have done this and I have proof now that this works. I forget sometimes, briefly, and I am reminded of the life I am no longer interested in. I thank you for always being there and for always helping me.

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