I am not a body. I am free.
For I am still as God created me.
1. (188) The peace of God is shining in me now.
²I will be still, and let the earth be still along with me. ³And in that stillness we will find the peace of God. ⁴It is within my heart, which witnesses to God Himself.
⁵I am not a body. ⁶I am free.
⁷For I am still as God created me.
As my mind continues to heal, that is, as I forgive and release more and more of the ego beliefs, I experience a stillness that was not my previous experience. Even though there are still ego thoughts that show up, and even though there is still mind chatter, there is an underlying stillness that I associate with peace. This is reflected in the world as I perceive it.
I read about something in the news and for a moment I feel affected by it, and then the feeling fades away, and peace returns. I have an issue with the car dealership and judgmental thoughts appear and I release them to the Holy Spirit and my mind is still again. My son and his girlfriend are on vacation and I have a worry thought about the long drive, and before I can do anything about it, the worry has dissipated and I am again at peace.
Recently, I asked the Holy Spirit to show me what else needs to be healed in my mind. I told Him that I wanted to go as far as I can in this lifetime. I became aware of beliefs that still interest me enough that I had to look at them more closely with the Holy Spirit and my peace was disturbed for longer periods of time. After a few of these episodes, I asked what this was about, why were these thoughts showing up like this when I thought I was done with them? Then, I remembered that I had asked for this and I felt gratitude for the opportunity to do more forgiveness work on what was clearly not forgiven.
This is the work and it’s not hard but it can feel hard when I resist. It does require vigilance and that vigilance is a part of my life now. I think maybe it will always be part of life as long as I am in this experience of separation. I don’t mind. Many years ago, when I first met Regina Dawn Akers, she described healing the mind as being like climbing a mountain.
When you finally released a persistent belief, you would be at the top of the mountain and would rest there a while, then back into the valley to see what else was there. After doing this work for a while the mountains would get smaller and further apart, and the climbs easier. That has always felt like an apt description to me. The landscape is a lot flatter now and I gladly make the climbs because that is how I reach my one goal, the peace of God.