I. The Origins of Separation, P 5
5 Whatever lies you may believe are of no concern to the miracle, which can heal any of them with equal ease. It makes no distinctions among misperceptions. Its sole concern is to distinguish between truth on the one hand, and error on the other. Some miracles may seem to be of greater magnitude than others. But remember the first principle in this course; there is no order of difficulty in miracles. In reality you are perfectly unaffected by all expressions of lack of love. These can be from yourself and others, from yourself to others, or from others to you. Peace is an attribute in you. You cannot find it outside. Illness is some form of external searching. Health is inner peace. It enables you to remain unshaken by lack of love from without and capable, through your acceptance of miracles, of correcting the conditions proceeding from lack of love in others.
I just love that first sentence! It doesn’t matter what form an untruth takes, or how big or complicated it seems. The miracle is unaffected. It simply is true or it is not. This really simplifies things, doesn’t it? I see now that the reason it seems like some miracles feel different than others is that I believe in some falsehoods more than others.
When looking for a parking place I call on my parking angel. My parking angel really rocks! She’s the best parking angel ever. I’m never surprised anymore when I go straight to an excellent parking place even in holiday shopping crowds. This feels like a tiny miracle and hardly worth mentioning, and even a little embarrassing. The kind of thing you tell someone and then laugh like it’s a joke. But really, why should I expect my life to be difficult as if expecting a convenient parking place would put a strain on the universe.
In the past, I have asked for healing of some sort and the mind would come up with reasons why I should not ask, or question if “good” would be the most helpful response. For instance, I would ask for ease in dealing with a difficult person and the thought would be that maybe having to deal with adversity was what I really needed. I would ask for someone else’s healing and would question if that was the best prayer. Maybe they are supposed to go through this sickness.
And of course, I have had the thought that I can’t believe something can be healed. It just doesn’t seem possible because it is so awful, or so real in some other way that it is too difficult for me to imagine it being simply gone or changed. All of these objections to miracles are the result of me believing in the lie more than I believed in the miracle. It is also the result of believing that all of these effects are outside the mind.
When I believe that the body is outside the mind, I think it is separate and out of my sphere of direct influence. It then seems as if there is the body and separate from that is my mind that will now have to affect something not part of itself. Now that separation is established in my mind with that thought, I see everything as separate.
A separate entity, the doctor, must be called upon. Separate medicines must be used and I can only hope the right one is available and works for me because I am separate and unique from other people. Because we are different, it might work on them but not me. A separate, and unreliable God can be prayed to, but since He is mad at me for being separate I don’t always feel deserving of His help so my supplications are tentative.
It gets even more complicated if I see someone else suffering and want to help, or if someone seems to be a threat to me in some way. I have to deal with the insurance people today and this feels like a threat, with them wanting one thing and me another. If I think they are outside my mind, and thus separate from me, I feel confused about how to pray.
Would it be right to pray that I influence them or would that be unfair to them? What if I influence them to see things my way and then they get in trouble and lose their job? What would be the right prayer?
Here is what I did instead. I realized that I don’t know the right outcome for myself or anyone else so I ask for the right outcome without any attachment to what that might look like. I also realize that I am meant to be free and joyful and at peace and that there is no reason for me to experience anything else, nor is there any reason for anyone else to have a different experience. I am innocent and I am loved. Everyone else is innocent and loved.
All of the world, everyone in it and every dream we are having is in the mind. Jesus says there is nothing outside the mind and that was an unequivocal statement. I accept that and believe that. Since the body and the insurance people and the situations I am dealing with are all in my mind, I ask that my mind be healed of any mistaken thought that the outcome should be less than loving, joyful and peaceful for all involved.
When I notice a thought in my mind that does not feel loving, peaceful or joyful, I know that this is not a true thought. That is as far as I need to go with it. The form the thought takes is not of concern. It is either true or it is not true. I give the thought to Holy Spirit in full expectation of the miracle. I have every right and reason to expect a healed mind. As my mind is healed, my dream shifts and takes on a happy aspect.
Because I know this to be true, I am not disturbed by anything in the dream that is taking time to shift. My certainty allows me to wait in happy anticipation to see how life works itself out. Sometimes I have been delighted to see that all I needed to be happy was the acceptance of what was happening. I didn’t actually need the picture to change at all. Sometimes I have laughed as the scene before me dissolved into something else.
Without the stress of doubt and uncertainty life is simply interesting. If I become confused and forget what is real and what isn’t if I start seeing the story as if it is happening “out there” the stress returns. I feel anxious and panicky. I make the mistake of thinking that one mistaken thought was more powerful than another and so some things can be fixed and some not. But now that I know why this happens, I can just take a moment to give these thoughts to the Holy Spirit and ask Him to undo what I have done.