III. The Reality of the Kingdom, P 2
2 God’s meaning waits in the Kingdom, because that is where He placed it. It does not wait in time. It merely rests in the Kingdom because it belongs there, as you do. How can you who are God’s meaning perceive yourself as absent from it? You can see yourself as separated from your meaning only by experiencing yourself as unreal. This is why the ego is insane; it teaches that you are not what you are. That is so contradictory it is clearly impossible. It is therefore a lesson you cannot really learn, and therefore cannot really teach. Yet you are always teaching. You must, therefore, be teaching something else, even though the ego does not know what it is. The ego, then, is always being undone, and does suspect your motives. Your mind cannot be unified in allegiance to the ego, because the mind does not belong to it. Yet what is “treacherous” to the ego is faithful to peace. The ego’s “enemy” is therefore your friend.
In this paragraph Jesus is talking to me, to the real me, not to the Myron personality self that is the ego manifestation. He says that I cannot teach what is clearly not true, and since I am always teaching I am teaching truth. The ego, which I still identify with to some degree, suspects that I am being disloyal to it and so thinks of me as enemy. My mind will never unite with ego because my mind belongs to God.
From reading this I realize how grateful I am to know that my true self is never going to be lost to the ego self. I am grateful to know that while the ego self is busy teaching ego stuff, that is not me, and I am teaching only truth and doing so all the time. I am, above all else, grateful to know that I belong to God. This paragraph strongly reinforces the truth I am coming to accept; I am not ego and ego does not really exist. I am God’s meaning, residing even now in the Kingdom. I am safe in the knowledge that I am still as God created me.