V. The Lessons of the Holy Spirit, P 4
4 The Holy Spirit never itemizes errors because He does not frighten children, and those who lack wisdom are children. Yet He always answers their call, and His dependability makes them more certain. Children do confuse fantasy and reality, and they are frightened because they do not recognize the difference. The Holy Spirit makes no distinction among dreams. He merely shines them away. His light is always the call to awaken, whatever you have been dreaming. Nothing lasting lies in dreams, and the Holy Spirit, shining with the Light from God Himself, speaks only for what lasts forever.
I value knowing the Holy Spirit doesn’t itemize errors because knowing this, when I hear that voice telling me all I have done wrong I know it is not Holy Spirit so it must be ego. I value knowing that the Holy Spirit always answers. If I don’t hear His answer it must be because I am listening to the ego instead.
Every once in a while I will fall into complete confusion. This always happens when I allow fear to take over my mind. When Toby was in the hospital is an example. I was so afraid for him that my mind was stunned. I knew I was thinking wrong, but for a while fear kept me from seeing clearly. I couldn’t discern truth from fantasy.
The saving grace for me was that I knew what was happening. I knew I was thinking with the ego, so I was able to eventually pull my attention away from fantasy and allow myself to be guided to truth. But that experience reminded me of what it is like to be lost in my fantasies. It also reminded me that the Holy Spirit always listens and always answers, but it is completely up to me to decide to hear Him.
The experience I had at that time seemed very big to me, very important. It seemed different than my normal, everyday moments of temporary confusion such as when someone at the office triggers an ego response from me and for a moment I think they are the enemy. But they are not different. They are exactly the same. The Holy Spirit doesn’t see a big error or a small error, he simply sees error which he corrects, and we accept according to our willingness.
Categorizing and sizing my mistakes is an error I still make. Some just feel bigger or more important to me, even though I understand that this could not be true. My thoughts are true or they are not. That makes sense to me, but it doesn’t yet always feel that way. The Holy Spirit doesn’t suffer from that confusion. He knows that an error is simply a lack of love and that the solution is always love. One problem, one solution. Simple. No matter how it seems to me in my story, the Holy Spirit has but one goal, and that is to awaken me.