I. The Message of the Crucifixion, P 18
18 The power of the Sons of God is present all the time, because they were created as creators. Their influence on each other is without limit, and must be used for their joint salvation. Each one must learn to teach that all forms of rejection are meaningless. The separation is the notion of rejection. As long as you teach this you will believe it. This is not as God thinks, and you must think as He thinks if you are to know Him again.
A key sentence for me is that the separation is the notion of rejection. Because I am one with All That Is, in order to experience separation I must reject all but this little dab of self. I must push away all else and see this little self as alone and apart. Now that the idea of rejection is in place and is in my mind, it is projected outward and seen in the world as if it is real. This is how we made the illusion.
To undo the illusion I start with what I can see and allow that aspect to be undone. For instance, I texted my daughter last night and she had a late class so she said she would call me when she got home. She never called and the thought of being rejected was in my mind. I saw the belief in rejection and this is no surprise.
Of course the belief in rejection is in the mind. It is not personal and nothing to be ashamed of or guilty about. However, it is something to heal and so I asked for the Atonement and accepted it to the degree I am able. This is my part in the awakening of the sleeping Mind of God’s Son. The next time I see a rejection thought in my mind I will do the same thing.
There will be many opportunities. I reject the clerk at the hotel when she seems to be uninviting. I reject my co-worker when he seems to be obstinately refusing to listen to my advice even though it would help him. I reject and feel rejected often during the day and it is all meaningless. I used to get upset when I noticed these things.
First I judged and this set up the feeling of rejection and then I judged myself for having that thought, for holding onto that belief. Now I am letting go of the self judgment that makes the whole process more painful and clogs up the works. Here is a prayer I was given that is helping me to do this with more conviction.
My Mind is healed and Whole Now! Everything else is illusion, just let it go. No need to fix illusion!
At first this was a little disappointing. I thought this was just another affirmation and not all that impressive. But as I have used this thought for the last couple of days I have felt the tension and anxiety around the healing process loosening. I only need to remember the truth; nothing else needs my attention. If it is not the truth it is just an illusion and I don’t have to do anything with an illusion except let it go. Whew!
I am through with separation and so I don’t want to teach it anymore. Every time I see a reflection of that belief in my mind or my life, I will let it go. Those are meaningless thoughts and not the thoughts I think with God. As I let those thoughts go, I will become aware of my real thoughts, the thoughts I think with God. I do this because I long to know God again.