II. The Voice for God, P 3
3 The principle of Atonement and the separation began at the same time. When the ego was made, God placed in the mind the Call to joy. This Call is so strong that the ego always dissolves at Its sound. That is why you must choose to hear one of two voices within you. One you made yourself, and that one is not of God. But the other is given you by God, Who asks you only to listen to it. The Holy Spirit is in you in a very literal sense. His is the Voice that calls you back to where you were before and will be again. It is possible even in this world to hear only that Voice and no other. It takes effort and great willingness to learn. It is the final lesson that I learned, and God’s Sons are as equal as learners as they are as Sons.
I was reading in the Manual for Teachers this morning: “Heaven is here. There is nowhere else. Heaven is now. There is no other time.” So there is nothing for me to do to be what I am, nowhere to go. It is not in the future or the past. There is only now. But I don’t really know that. I still think I am something else. I still think that Heaven is someplace else. I know the words that refute that, and I believe they must be true, but if I really knew them I would experience life differently than I do.
On the other hand, my life does reflect my growing acceptance of the Atonement, and I have no doubt that I will soon be where I was before and will be again, that is, I will remember who I am. This is happening because I am learning to listen to that one Voice, the Voice for God, and my goal is to hear only that Voice. Right now I still hear the ego voice, but I deny its ability to affect me. Jesus wasn’t kidding when he said that it takes effort and great willingness to learn to hear only this Voice, but it is worth every bit of it.
Because I ask for guilt and fear to be undone in my mind, I get to see a lot of it. This is necessary because for it to be undone I must look at it with the Holy Spirit. With so much of this happening right now I sometimes get discouraged. I see all this fear and guilt and think I haven’t made any progress at all. But while the well of guilt and fear is very deep in us, it is not endless. And I am capable of doing my part. I know this because Jesus said that what he asked us to do, we can do.
Something that helped me to feel more confident came from Chapter 14. It says: “You can learn to bless, and cannot give what you have not. If, then, you offer blessing, it must have come first to yourself. And you must also have accepted it as yours, for how else could you give it away? That is why miracles offer you the testimony that you are blessed.”
The reason this has helped me is that even when I am completely tangled up in my fear and guilt thoughts to such a degree that I have forgotten why I am looking at them, I can still teach the truth without any of that confusion. Because I give that truth I know that I have that truth and that I have accepted it, or I would not be able to give it. This helps me to remember why I am looking at all these thoughts of guilt and fear. I am looking so they can be healed. I am not guilty; I am only looking.
Sometimes it is really uncomfortable to look at the thoughts in my mind, but it is an essential part of the process that allows them to be purified. In doing this work, I am making the effort and giving my willingness to be healed, and thus I am waking up. I am remembering who I am as I accept the Atonement for these thoughts. I am learning to hear only that one Voice.