II. The Voice for God, P 1
1 Healing is not creating; it is reparation. The Holy Spirit promotes healing by looking beyond it to what the children of God were before healing was needed, and will be when they have been healed. This alteration of the time sequence should be quite familiar, because it is very similar to the shift in the perception of time that the miracle introduces. The Holy Spirit is the motivation for miracle-mindedness; the decision to heal the separation by letting it go. Your will is still in you because God placed it in your mind, and although you can keep it asleep you cannot obliterate it. God Himself keeps your will alive by transmitting it from His Mind to yours as long as there is time. The miracle itself is a reflection of this union of will between Father and Son.
It is my will to awaken from the dream of separation and to return my full mind to God. This will has been asleep, out of my conscious awareness, for most of my life. This has happened because it is what I wanted to happen. While I can be oblivious to my will, I cannot destroy or lose or even change my will because God keeps it alive for me. I must have changed my mind about remembering my will because it is beginning to surface.
The Holy Spirit is in my mind to help me with this. Because I want to awaken, the Holy Spirit looks with me at the ego beliefs which have been blocking the awareness of God’s Love, and transforms these beliefs. For instance, in order to sustain the belief that I am separate from God, I have had to project an image of a body and give it autonomy. I make it seem as if the body gets sick and suffers and needs magical help to recover. I give it medicines and exercise it and sometimes I have to take it to a doctor to save it.
The Holy Spirit is teaching me that this is insane. The body is only an image of a belief in my mind. It cannot cause anything, being an effect itself. It cannot get sick or suffer or die. When it does these things it is only because it was so directed by the mind. So when it seems I have pain in the body, I really have the belief in pain in the mind, which I then project onto the body. In this way I convince myself that the pain is real and so is the body because it feels the pain. Because I seem to be feeling pain, I seem to prove that I am the body.
No matter how much care I take to preserve my “self” the body continues to age and to suffer sickness, eventually to die. This is perfectly ego, which always seeks only to fail in what it seeks. I am a part of God, but as ego I see myself as separate and different from ego. I become my own creator, as I see myself as a body. I am not a very good creator, but I am a jealous god. I would rather be sick and suffer than to give into the truth.
I use my pathetic creation to prove that God has no power over me. I can be sick and there is nothing He can do about it. I prove I can stand outside and apart from God and that He can’t get to me. Better to be fat, unhealthy, in pain, even to die than to subject myself to God. No wonder I feel afraid of Him. I seem to have made God my enemy and my only defense against Him is the pathetically inadequate and weak body.
This is what the Holy Spirit is showing me. And He is showing me the insanity of it all. God is Love. God is Life. I could never be a body and I could never be sick or suffer. I certainly could never die. I can pretend to be outside of Life and Love, but I cannot actually do that. As I look at these thoughts in my mind and ask the Holy Spirit to heal them, and as I become willing to accept the Atonement for them, I begin to awaken to the truth. I can never have a separate will from God because I can never be separate from God.
The miracle is the change of mind that allows me to remember the truth that God and I are joined forever and nothing can come between us, not even my dreams of separation. Just as my beliefs of separation have been projected as if they were outside me, the happier dreams of union are being projected outward as well. They appear as literal miracles in my life.
I need to know something and there it is, in a book or a recording. I didn’t search for it as I didn’t even know what it looked like. I needed it and it was there. I was in pain and remembered that pain is not possible and the pain went away. I was in fear and remembered that fear is not part of God and asked for healing. The fear vanished as if it were smoke blown by the wind. My mind was darkened by a long held grievance, and in a moment of sanity I asked for healing and the grievance disappeared. I cannot even remember what it felt like to hold that grievance. It is a miracle.
I didn’t do any of these things from within the dreamy world of separation. I welcomed the miracle of a healed mind and the miracle was projected onto the world. I know it is a miracle when it comes from outside my ego mind, when I know that Myron could not have done it. The miracle in the world is a symbol of the healed mind that remembers, even if for just a moment, the union of Father and Son.