I. The Invitation to the Holy Spirit, P 5
5 The Holy Spirit is the Christ Mind which is aware of the knowledge that lies beyond perception. He came into being with the separation as a protection, inspiring the Atonement principle at the same time. Before that there was no need for healing, for no one was comfortless. The Voice of the Holy Spirit is the Call to Atonement, or the restoration of the integrity of the mind. When the Atonement is complete and the whole Sonship is healed there will be no Call to return. But what God creates is eternal. The Holy Spirit will remain with the Sons of God, to bless their creations and keep them in the light of joy.
In the very instant we were in need of healing, the Holy Spirit came into being. He is the Healer we need to bring the mind back to truth. Before we had the thought of separation there was no need for healing so there was no need for a Healer. I am so grateful. We are perfectly protected, even from our errors. Through the thought of separation we created an experience of pain, suffering and death, and even though we could not make it real, we could feel as if it were real. Loneliness, confusion, guilt and fear are the effects of this belief and if there were no Correction in place we would be lost in our dreams, unable to remember who we are, forever trading one perception for another, sinking deeper and deeper into the hell of our nightmares.
But we are protected from this fate, protected in our dreams, comforted and guided out of them by the Holy Spirit. I feel like a lost child and so to me the Holy Spirit feels like a protective being, but this is not actual. The Holy Spirit is the Christ Mind. He is the Call to Atonement. He is the Voice for God. Probably it would be more appropriate to think of the Holy Spirit as It rather than He, but that wouldn’t be very comforting for me. Maybe that is why the Holy Spirit is referred to as He in the Course, or maybe the Holy Spirit is something beyond my understanding. Maybe everything is beyond my understanding at this time and so it is all a metaphor, a bridge to the truth.
What I know is that the Holy Spirit is in my mind and will correct my thinking, and heal me. He will comfort me and guide me. He waits patiently for my acceptance of His help. I am always willing to look at my thoughts with the Holy Spirit and let Him purify them, and sometimes I will ask for a certain idea to be healed and He will direct me to those thoughts in my mind. It sounds like such a simple straightforward process. I ask Holy Spirit to look with me, I realize my thoughts are hurting me and I accept the Atonement. Easy peasy, right?
Well, yes and no. It is a simple process, and no it is not always easy. Remember that my mind is split. I do want to be healed, and there is the other part of my mind that defends against this healing. That part of me wants to remain in this separated state and to continue the stories. This conflict in the mind is painful and sometimes frightening. The way I defend against the truth is to ignore it and place my attention on the stories instead. I can get lost in the stories for awhile when I do this.
Recently, the Holy Spirit has been directing me to look at guilt. At first this was pretty exciting because I was seeing guilt where I had not seen it before. This is good, because looking with Holy Spirit is safe and doesn’t cause more guilt. In this way, I can see it as if it was just part of a movie, as if I were removed from it, and from this detached point of view it is clear to me that it is not helping and that I don’t want it anymore.
But what happened is that as I looked at more and more guilt in my mind, I forgot my purpose. I forgot that I want to see the guilt and I forgot that I am looking so that it can be healed. Instead I got caught up in all the guilty stories and believed them. I knew that I had made an error and that I had moved off my path, but I was drawn to the guilt. Jesus says that we have a sick attraction to guilt and that is true. Soon, I completely forgot that I was looking at stories so I could forgive them and all I was aware of was the guilt I felt for all these stories.
But my heart wants to be healed and so that desire for healing was still strong. I couldn’t stop feeling guilty, but I could ask for help. I was led to inspiring words coming through someone else. I was also led to inspired words that came through me at an earlier time. My mind began to clear of the fog of confusion and I opened my heart to healing. In the moment I wanted healing more than I wanted the guilt, it was done. That is the miracle, this instantaneous healing simply because I want healing. It doesn’t come from me. It is not a reward for good behavior. It is not withheld because of bad behavior. It is simply done the moment I really want it.
We will all be healed, and our mind’s returned to truth. Perception will fall away and knowledge will flow, once again, unimpeded throughout the mind. When this happens the Holy Spirit as Healer will no longer be needed, but He is a creation of God and so is eternal. Jesus tells us that He will be given another function. His function will then be to remain with Us, to bless our creations and keep them in the light of joy. You know, every time I read something like this in the Course, something that speaks so casually of my Divinity, my heart leaps in joy. This is Who I Am, not the confused mind that thinks its salvation is guilt. I wish I would stop forgetting that.