VII. Creation and Communication, P 4
4 Existence as well as being rest on communication. Existence, however, is specific in how, what and with whom communication is judged to be worth undertaking. Being is completely without these distinctions. It is a state in which the mind is in communication with everything that is real. To whatever extent you permit this state to be curtailed you are limiting your sense of your own reality, which becomes total only by recognizing all reality in the glorious context of its real relationship to you. This is your reality. Do not desecrate it or recoil from it. It is your real home, your real temple and your real Self.
I see how my ego is very specific about communication. Not only does it have specific reasons or goals in communication with each specific person, but vast numbers of people stand outside the small circle of people it deems worthy of communication. I would give money to a beggar, but would I be interested in his story, would I open my mind and heart to him, or would I give and quickly shy away? I have been known to stand really still in a dark room waiting out the Jehovah’s Witness knocking on my door. For a long time I avoided the sick, the mentally ill, the old. But Spirit kept sending them to my door until finally I began to open it.
For many years animal lovers have baffled me. They seemed to in some way attuned to their pets and to have such deep love for them. I couldn’t understand this. In my mind they were just animals and while I would be kind to them, I felt no love and would never consider communicating with them. I no longer feel like they are “just” animals, but I still am not drawn to them in the way some people are. I have no doubt though, that communication with them is possible.
My feeling is that words are just one way to communicate and probably not the most effective. I have a feeling that if I let go the self-imposed boundaries of body-to-body communication I would feel something else. I sense it right there just out of reach, hindered only by my need to be separate. I suspect that I limit my communication because I have boundaries that I defend against encroachment. My body is my most important fortification; my ego resides “safely” behind its walls and all else is rebutted. My judgments further hinder communication, as some are deemed worthy and others repelled or disregarded.
You know, as I write this I feel tired. How much of myself goes into preventing communication? How much effort, attention and energy do I expend preventing communication? If being naturally communicates with all, then I must be working very hard to be unaware of this communication. I don’t know how to let down my defenses and be my Self. What I can do is become willing to communicate on whatever level I am aware.
I can remain vigilant for self-imposed restrictions on communication. One way I can do this is to give each person I speak to my total attention rather than allowing my mind to wander. I can begin each conversation with the silent prayer to know this brother, to hear this brother in whatever way he needs me to hear him, to hear with my Heart not just my ears. I can release whatever judgments arise because those judgments are a block that keeps me from hearing my brother.
I can become willing and ever more willing to allow communication at the deepest levels I am capable at this time. I sense that full communication with all things is a wonder to be embraced, rather than a danger to be defended against. I give my willingness to move into this and though I don’t know how, I know it is possible and it is my right. I know it is my true nature. My ego wants separation, but I am not my ego.