III. Perception Versus Knowledge, P 6
6 Right perception is necessary before God can communicate directly to His altars, which He established in His Sons. There He can communicate His certainty, and His knowledge will bring peace without question. God is not a stranger to His Sons, and His Sons are not strangers to each other. Knowledge preceded both perception and time, and will ultimately replace them. That is the real meaning of “Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end” and “Before Abraham was I am.” Perception can and must be stabilized, but knowledge is stable. “Fear God and keep His commandments” becomes “Know God and accept His certainty.”
A couple of weeks ago I decided that I wanted to be free of the belief that food makes me fat. I fully understand the concept that it is guilt that makes me fat. It is the belief in my mind that fat is caused by food, and it happens when I am guilty for eating something I have decided should be on my no-no list. I understand this and I believe it is true. This is working with the thinking mind and is, for me, the first step out of that particular hell.
The second step is deciding it is time to let this go. I made a commitment to allow my mind to be healed. I recognized that I am imprisoned by this belief. It is like a box I can’t get out of and I keep bumping into the sides and hurting myself. It feels like my whole life revolves around what I eat. I am either afraid of my food choices, confused about what I should eat or what it means, or feeling guilty about what I eat. I am tired of this and ready for a final solution.
So having made that decision I am now vigilant for thoughts that keep me imprisoned in this story of being victim to food, to this body, to my own choices. When I notice them I ask for the miracle. I ask that my mind be healed of these beliefs and I accept the Atonement in this situation. This is the way I allow my perception to be corrected.
I am absolutely amazed at how persistent these beliefs are. For instance, I often during the day assess what I have eaten to see if I have taken in too many calories or carbs. When I notice that I am doing this I gently remind myself that food is not the problem. Again, I ask for healing. I wonder if I resist because I would rather be not very good at controlling my world than to admit that I made all this up and it is meaningless.
I did this with time and it feels so good to be free of the idea that time is real and it is my job to work within those fixed boundaries. I am doing this with pain. I am allowing my mind to be healed of the belief in pain, sickness and death. I say this as I sit here with a cold or sinus infection or something.
I just told someone on Sunday that I haven’t had a cold in so many years I barely remember what it is like. It seems like every time I say something like this, I reassess what I want to believe. But I am not suffering. I have symptoms. I have sinus drainage and so a sore throat. I have a little fever and some achiness. This is what it feels like.
Suffering, on the other hand is when I think it should not be happening and I am at war with it. There is nothing to fight against. I know that I made this up. Pain and sickness and suffering are not possible because they are not in God. I open my heart to Love and ask that my mind be healed of the belief in pain and sickness that I still cling to.
I look at different beliefs that I have always accepted as “just the way it is” and ask that I remember the truth instead. I made these rules and laws, projected situations that seemed to prove the rules and concluded they have validity because, well… there they are. Now I am undoing all this as I ask that the Holy Spirit come into my mind and undo what I have done.
In this way my perceptions are brought closer to truth and stabilized so that I am not always having to go back and do it again simply because the form of the untrue thought looks a little different. When my perception is completely stabilized then God will be able to communicate His knowledge directly to me. He will reveal the truth and I will no longer simply believe, but I will know, never to waver in that knowing, never to question the truth again. I knew before and I will know again.