A. Special Principles of Miracle Workers P 17
17 (7) The injunction “Be of one mind” is the statement for revelation-readiness. My request “Do this in remembrance of me” is the appeal for cooperation from miracle workers. The two statements are not in the same order of reality. Only the latter involves an awareness of time, since to remember is to recall the past in the present. Time is under my direction, but timelessness belongs to God. In time we exist for and with each other. In timelessness we coexist with God.
My eye is drawn to the sentence that says time is under Jesus’ direction. I have been at war with time all my life, it seems. Every day I wake up looking at the clock to see if I have enough time to do my meditation and journaling. All day I look at the clock to see if I am going to be late to see a customer. At night, I keep an eye on the clock to see if I can do a few more things and still get to sleep in time to wake up early enough to start all over and have time to do everything. Do you see the anxiety that runs beneath all this clock watching?
As I have learned that time is not real and that Jesus can adjust time for me, I have called on him for this at times when I absolutely had to. But I have reserved those times for emergencies. And even then I listened to and believed the ego voice telling me that I should not have wasted my time and then called on Jesus to fix things for me. I mean, it just can’t be right that I fiddled around on Facebook too long and now I’m racing against the clock to get my writing done and get it posted. Do you see the guilt and unworthiness running beneath this? And the belief in lack, as if there are just so many miracles and I am guilty if I waste them?
Lately, Jesus has invited me to look at this differently. He has shown me that time is malleable in his hands. He has shown me that what I do today, at this time, affects the past as well as the future. He has shown me that forgiveness reaches across, around, and through time and space as if they were not real. And so he is bringing me to the remembrance that, indeed, they are not real and that we made up both time and space.
Most recently, he wants me to look at my race against time. He is showing me that time is indeed nothing, just a concept useful in organizing my illusion. It has no power over me and if I put my trust in Jesus, he can easily manipulate it for me. Looking at my reaction to this idea has been enlightening. I see that there are many beliefs in my mind that are in error and that I can bring to Spirit for healing.
When I think that time rules me, I feel very small and vulnerable, a victim of the world I see. How can this be true? I made the world I see, how can I be victim to it? I am a Son of God, how can I be ruled by a concept that I made up? How can the Son of God be victim to anything? My reluctance to ask Jesus for help and the guilt I feel for needing his help are just ego separation thoughts made to keep me in this belief in limitation.
I see that Jesus is always ready and willing to adjust time for me, but I must be ready and willing to accept his help. I must be willing to let go of the idea that time is real and that I am ruled by it. I must be willing to let go of the belief that I am unworthy and must constantly do things to establish my worth. I see that my wrong-minded thinking is blocking Jesus from helping me.
Holy Spirit, in accepting these thoughts of limitation without questioning them, I have convinced myself that I am victim to time and that my guilt makes me unworthy of anything else. I have done this to myself, but now I see that I was wrong. Please heal my mind. I am ready to see differently.
Please help me to know that my worth was established by God, and so unworthiness is not possible. Please help me to know that I don’t have to “do” anything to deserve help. Please heal my mind of the belief that I ask for too much and that I should do, some of this at least, on my own before I ask for help. Help me to release all limits I place on Jesus’ help. Holy Spirit, please help me to remember who I am. Please help me to know that I am deeply and forever loved.