VII. The Body as a Means of Communication, P 15
15 Joy is unified purpose, and unified purpose is only God’s. When yours is unified it is His. Believe you can interfere with His purpose, and you need salvation. You have condemned yourself, but condemnation is not of God. Therefore it is not true. No more are any of its seeming results. When you see a brother as a body, you are condemning him because you have condemned yourself. Yet if all condemnation is unreal, and it must be unreal since it is a form of attack, then it can have no results.
God’s purpose is joy and when I interfere with that purpose, I have condemned myself. The good news is that this is not possible. While I believe it is, I will suffer, but since only God’s purpose has reality and what is His is mine, I can be saved from my suffering. Its very unreality is my salvation. To know that I am saved only requires my desire to know this.
It is God’s Will that I be saved from my mistaken beliefs and so everything I need to have this is provided for me. When I was ready for it, I was led to A Course in Miracles. When I needed a new teacher one would appear. When I needed to hear the truth in a different way, it was given to me in the form of a different course. When I was ready for a more direct experience, I was shown how I was to listen to the Voice within.
Recently, I have had a different experience. I am approaching the one mind, and the part of my mind that resists this is insistent that I not make this approach. The resistance took the form of doubt that led to depression. I have a very clear understanding that depression is not part of my life now even though it used to be very much a part of my identity as I saw it. So this was confusing and upsetting to me.
I wasn’t deeply depressed as I used to be, and for most of the day it was not there. But it kept occurring and my doubts turned into fear. The biggest difference was that I did not fall headlong into it, but remained in touch with my healed mind, constantly asking for help. I was led to the simple passage from the Course where Jesus says that I only need to ask the Holy Spirit to decide for me and it will be done. So I started that practice.
It quickly deepened until I was asking that He decide for me even what I was thinking and how I felt, and I realized that in so doing I was letting go of the ego mind altogether, and allowing my Self to rise in its place. At the same time, the dying ego was filling my mind with doubts and fear and this kept the depression in place. Finally, a couple of days ago I told Jesus I needed help, that I could not overcome this alone and I didn’t know what to do about it.
In typical miraculous fashion, the answer came that very day in a form I was certain to notice. Nouk Sanchez posted a message on my Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/myronacim). The message said, “Myron …just got a nudge to share this with you.” This is the link she gave me: http://undoing-the-ego.org/noukblog/?p=1143. And from this there developed a conversation with Nouk that she put on her website: http://undoing-the-ego.org/noukblog/?p=1156.
Everything has changed in those two short days. I felt the doubts and fears come to me and I realized how unreal they were. I easily let that go and I turned my attention to the truth. Even though it has only been a couple of days it all feels so different now. It is also very important to me that I said to Jesus that I needed help, and he nudged Nouk to share with me what she had written. I see Nouk’s writings all the time and sometimes I read them, but often I don’t take the time. Because she said this was a nudge (and mostly because I felt Jesus nudging me to read) I stopped what I was doing and read it. We are not alone. We are guided. We are helped. Whatever we need is provided.