C 8: IV. The Gift of Freedom, P 5

IV. The Gift of Freedom, P 5

5 Healing reflects our joint will. This is obvious when you consider what healing is for. Healing is the way in which the separation is overcome. Separation is overcome by union. It cannot be overcome by separating. The decision to unite must be unequivocal, or the mind itself is divided and not whole. Your mind is the means by which you determine your own condition, because mind is the mechanism of decision. It is the power by which you separate or join, and experience pain or joy accordingly. My decision cannot overcome yours, because yours is as powerful as mine. If it were not so the Sons of God would be unequal. All things are possible through our joint decision, but mine alone cannot help you. Your will is as free as mine, and God Himself would not go against it. I cannot will what God does not will. I can offer my strength to make yours invincible, but I cannot oppose your decision without competing with it and thereby violating God’s Will for you.

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I am glad that Jesus reminds us that healing is the way the separation is overcome, and that separation is overcome by union. In other words, we must unite. We unite with our brothers and we unite our will with God’s Will. Sometimes this is done in a single prayer. When I am angry with someone, I ask that my mind be healed of this wrong-minded belief. In this prayer I am asking that the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence be removed from my mind. This joins me with God. At the same time it makes it possible for me to join with my brother, which joins my will with God’s Will.

For this to be effective, my uniting must be unequivocal. If I am forgiving my brother (forgiving my projections onto him) I must do so with no caveats. Here is an example. In the past I have held a grievance against a fellow worker. When I became uncomfortable with my judgments, I asked that my mind be healed. I really wanted to be free of my discomfort, but I didn’t want to let him off the hook. I wanted him to change. There was no real joining intended in that request.

Then I finally reached the point that when I said I wanted to be free of my judgment, I meant it, but when he did something else, I saw his behavior this time as different than it was before, so I went right back to judging and to my own discomfort. I had to recognize that these were just different forms of the same problem and I let go of them so that I could be at peace. Every time I see him now, I ask the Holy Spirit if there is forgiveness to be done. I want our joining, and the only way I can have it is if my desire is unequivocal, no exceptions.

And that is just the one person. I cannot enter the presence of God if I attack His Son. This, too must be an unequivocal decision on my part. I must be willing to give up judging everyone including myself. That seems like a tall order sometimes, but it is my only real choice. Nothing else will restore my mind to God; nothing else will return my will to God’s Will. Nothing else will heal.

Jesus tells us that our mind is the means by which we determine our own condition, because mind is the mechanism of decision. Returning to God is simply a matter of deciding to do so. But again, the decision must be unequivocal. This means I must decide against anything that would keep me in the illusion. That is why I ask for mind healing all day long. It is the reason I ask the Holy Spirit to remove from my mind the thought that is blocking my return.

Only I can decide for God, this cannot be done for me. Once I make that decision, the Holy Spirit becomes the mechanism that makes it possible. But only after I decide. Jesus says he cannot overpower our will because it is not God’s Will that we be forced into peace and happiness. It is always going to be our choice. It would seem like an easy choice and I have often thought I made that choice only to discover there was still something I wanted more than Heaven.

What helped me get this far is that I have so much help. Jesus offers me his strength to make mine invincible. He says he I can imagine holding his hand and then he assured me this would be no idle fantasy. He said he is with me always. He says he will help me or he will wait until I am ready for his help. The Holy Spirit responds quickly and fully to my slightest invitation. I have unseen help and present help. How could I fail except it be my decision to do so.

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