X. The Confusion of Pain and Joy, P 2
2 It is surely clear that you can both accept into your mind what is not there, and deny what is. Yet the function God Himself gave your mind through His you may deny, but you cannot prevent. It is the logical outcome of what you are. The ability to see a logical outcome depends on the willingness to see it, but its truth has nothing to do with your willingness. Truth is God’s Will. Share His Will and you share what He knows. Deny His Will as yours, and you are denying His Kingdom and yours.
I have the Kingdom of God and am in the Kingdom of God and nothing can change this because I am that I am. This is not up for debate, nor is it possible to alter it. However, if I choose not to acknowledge my reality, it is as if I am not that. I will seem to be something different, and somewhere different. But seeming and being is hardly the same thing.
If it is my will I can prevent myself from being aware of the truth. I simply refuse to accept it. It is possible for me to do this through my unlimited freedom as God’s Son. However, though I am free to disregard truth, I cannot prevent truth from being true and so it remains in my mind even though I deny its presence. It simply is. Because what I am is always available to me, all I need to do to know my Self again is to decide not to block it from my memory. I do this through the Holy Spirit, Which is also in my mind.
Not only am I hiding my truth from myself and refusing to accept what is in my mind, I am accepting something else instead. I accept all sorts of impossibilities as if they were gospel truth. I accept that I am separate from God, as if that could ever happen. I accept that I am separate from my brothers and from every living thing.
I accept that I am guilty and afraid. I accept the idea that projection will save me from my imagined fears, and that I can save myself by throwing my brothers under the bus. “Here, God, you angry and scary guy, here is someone who is guiltier than me. Take him.” I accept all sorts of insane thoughts into mind. I think I am a body, or at the least, imprisoned in this flesh. I think the body can be affected by something outside my mind. The list of insanity just goes on and on.
What I accept as true is true for me, but only in my dream of being something I am not. The truth remains, and is quite unaffected by my imaginings. In the meantime, since what I believe is true for me, and I believe I suffer, that seems to be true. I think I am suffering. I feel like I am suffering. I believe that this body is real and is me and is afflicted by all sorts of outside forces and so this is the experience I have. I think I get sick and die. I think I lose the ones I love. I think I can be impoverished.
I suffer through my own decisions, and for me, while I suffer it seems of little consequence that it is not really happening. So now that I know suffering is not inevitable, and I am told, not even real, I am motivated to allow the Holy Spirit to heal the only part of me that is sick and needs healing, my mind. I open to the truth by doing my part. I gladly and enthusiastically hand over the false beliefs that are blocking my Self from my awareness. “Holy Spirit, I ask for the Atonement and I accept and receive it. Amen.”