IX. The Extension of the Kingdom, P 1
1 Only you can limit your creative power, but God wills to release it. He no more wills you to deprive yourself of your creations than He wills to deprive Himself of His. Do not withhold your gifts to the Sonship, or you withhold yourself from God! Selfishness is of the ego, but Self-fullness is of spirit because that is how God created it. The Holy Spirit is in the part of the mind that lies between the ego and the spirit, mediating between them always in favor of the spirit. To the ego this is partiality, and it responds as if it were being sided against. To spirit this is truth, because it knows its fullness and cannot conceive of any part from which it is excluded.
I was standing at my window watching the rain pour down and thinking about an earlier section of the Course that said, “God Honored even the miscreations of His children because they had made them.” I realized that all these times when I have been feeling guilty for something in my life, I have failed to honor my miscreations and if God honors them so should I. I choose not to identify myself as my miscreations, but I honor them because of what I am.
I am asking Spirit to help me remember this today as ego thoughts rise up in my mind calling me to guilt. Can I trade guilt for honor? I think I can do that now that I understand honoring my freedom and my power even in my miscreations will not cause more miscreations. In fact, honor above guilt will break me out of the paralysis of my self-condemnation and return my mind to the Kingdom.
I read today’s paragraph and it begins by reminding me that only I can limit my creative power, and that this is not God’s Will. He wants me to create and to create fully. My creative power will be released as I release myself from my self-imposed prison of guilt and fear. I release myself through releasing my brothers. Again I am reminded that I am one with all my brothers, and what I release in them is released in me.
My sister-in-law is at the emergency room right now. Because she is in a weakened state, each time she has an emergency like this we know she might not recover. This is her miscreation, and there was a time when I blamed her for it. I thought she was guilty for the state she is in, that she should have quit smoking, and that she should have taken better care of herself.
I know that guilt is not real and is just something the ego thought up to bind us to the illusion, so I asked that my mind be healed. I accepted the Atonement for that and I am so grateful that I did. But now I am taking it a step further and I am honoring her miscreation. I honor her choices knowing that her life is her way Home regardless of how it appears in the world. I stand amazed at our power; even when misused, it is astonishing.
Can you imagine what our true creations must be? If we can make an entire world, if we can make it to be the impossible, and make it so real we believe in it, I am unable to visualize what we are creating right now in our true mind. The Holy Spirit was given to us to help us find our way back to the Kingdom where we already are. He is the intermediary between the parts of the mind, the part that remains with God and the part that imagines itself outside of God.
How hard can this be, really? We are powerful creators, we are as we were created, and we have never been anything else. We are only waking up to the truth that we have not gone anywhere and nothing has happened. How funny this predicament will seem when we wake up from it!