VI. From Vigilance to Peace, P 1
1 Although you can love the Sonship only as one, you can perceive it as fragmented. It is impossible, however, to see something in part of it that you will not attribute to all of it. That is why attack is never discrete, and why it must be relinquished entirely. If it is not relinquished entirely it is not relinquished at all. Fear and love make or create, depending on whether the ego or the Holy Spirit begets or inspires them, but they will return to the mind of the thinker and they will affect his total perception. That includes his concept of God, of His creations and of his own. He will not appreciate any of them if he regards them fearfully. He will appreciate all of them if he regards them with love.
The idea that stands out to me is that attack is never discrete, and so it must be relinquished entirely. If I believe in attack, if I believe in guilt and fear, then this will show up in my life. If I forgave everyone except one person or one situation, I would still experience attack. I would experience myself attacking and myself being attacked. I would see attack all around me.
The world I see is a projection from my mind, so it is made from the beliefs in my mind. The only way to be free of attack is to forgive attack completely and for all time. If I don’t relinquish attack then I will believe that my brothers are attacking me. I was posting from my Manual for Teachers journal this morning and in this entry I was talking about an experience with my daughter.
She had said something that seemed unloving to me. I experienced her words as an attack. When I asked Holy Spirit to look with me, He showed me that they were an expression of her own fear. That example showed me that as long as I hold onto attack I will see attack. If I see her words as an attack I will defend myself, even if only in my mind. But if I don’t believe in attack, I will see her words as a call for love and respond with love.
I also see how I will never be able to relinquish my fear of God if I believe in attack. Attack is never discreet. “It is impossible, however, to see something in part of it that you will not attribute to all of it.” My belief in attack will cause me to see God as a threat, just as I saw my sweet daughter as a threat. If I don’t relinquish attack, the whole world will be my enemy and I will never be safe. I will spend my life trying to defend myself against perceived threats. I will never be at peace. If peace and happiness are my goal, I must relinquish attack entirely.