V. Healing and the Changelessness of Mind, P 11
11 Come therefore unto me, and learn of the truth in you. The mind we share is shared by all our brothers, and as we see them truly they will be healed. Let your mind shine with mine upon their minds, and by our gratitude to them make them aware of the light in them. This light will shine back upon you and on the whole Sonship, because this is your proper gift to God. He will accept it and give it to the Sonship, because it is acceptable to Him and therefore to His Sons. This is true communion with the Holy Spirit, Who sees the altar of God in everyone, and by bringing it to your appreciation, He calls upon you to love God and His creation. You can appreciate the Sonship only as one. This is part of the law of creation, and therefore governs all thought.
It’s all very simple. How do we wake up? How do we remember who we are? How do we return our minds to God? We let go of the judgments we hold about everyone and everything. Just let that piece of fiction go. There’s nothing to it, anyway. Instead look where the Holy Spirit directs us. He sees only the altar of God in everyone. Imagine that! Imagine that everywhere you look, you see only God! It’s easy, because that is all there is to see.
Imagine the beauty of it! Everywhere you look you see perfection, holiness, and love. You feel lovable, and loved and loneliness is a fading memory, never to be experienced again. How could you be lonely when you share the same mind with all brothers and sisters, with an entire Sonship, and that mind is in God? You can never be misunderstood because communication is perfectly clear and flawless, with no gap between you to distort or disrupt communication. Look all around and you will see only us, our one glorious Self, living in perfect harmony, safe and happy.
As I consider this vision of Heaven which is mine for the taking, I consider also the alternative which I still sometimes choose. Yesterday at work, I was preparing a plan for a customer and it was my first time to do this particular plan. I was worried about getting it right and so was uneasy. In the middle of this I was interrupted and given another task. I felt anger rush through me and snapped at my boss. That hasn’t happened in so long that I was shocked by my reaction, as probably was my boss.
I took care of the extra job and as I did so, sanity slowly returned. I watched myself react and feel resentment, and project blame, and all the ego stuff we do when we think we are separate from each other and have different agendas which conflict. Someone will win, and someone must lose. Jeez, in the snap of a finger, I’m back in hell, just like that. Would I be so willing to relinquish the Kingdom just to keep my little piece of hell safe from interlopers? If I think of my brother as an interruption in my day, then I guess the answer was yes, at least in that moment of insanity.
As I was writing this, I had a vision of my mother slipping quietly into my room to comfort me. I had a really bad sunburn and was in pain. Pain to a little child is very scary and I wanted her there with me, reassuring me and making me feel better, but she couldn’t stay. My dad thought she was babying me and told her not to make a big deal of it. She had to leave me.
As I thought of this moment, I felt a surge of rage, the same rage that had been silently eating away at me for all these years. The rage was directed at my father for not caring about me, and at my mom for giving into his demands, and this rage was like wild fire in dry brush. It spread over the terrain of my life touching all the men with whom I had been in relationship. All were burned with the same fire, because that pain had never been looked at or forgiven. I had no idea that grievance was lurking in my mind and had caused so much damage.
The ego wants to fan that fire, and to feel sorry and sad and unloved because of it. But Spirit is showing it to me so that I can let it go into His hands and be healed. My dad had an agenda. He thought it was his job to toughen up his kids so they could face life. My mom thought her job was to comfort and protect her children from pain. I thought my job was to find someone to make me feel safe and cared for. But really, we all had the same agenda. We all wanted to be love, and to be loved. We just didn’t know how.
Because there is no time and because there is only one mind and we are all in it, and because space and even death are illusions, I am being given the opportunity to heal this old wound right now this morning with all of you as witnesses. I can hold onto the resentment and unfairness of it all, and feel vindicated in my anger, or I can relinquish that illusion and embrace our oneness.
Holy Spirit, I have no use for the ego. It is not me. Please show me God’s Altar in my dad, my mom and myself. I want only to awaken to the love that we are. Show me the place where we are one.