III. The Reality of the Kingdom, P 4
4 To be in the Kingdom is merely to focus your full attention on it. As long as you believe you can attend to what is not true, you are accepting conflict as your choice. Is it really a choice? It seems to be, but seeming and reality are hardly the same. You who are the Kingdom are not concerned with seeming. Reality is yours because you are reality. This is how having and being are ultimately reconciled, not in the Kingdom, but in your mind. The altar there is the only reality. The altar is perfectly clear in thought, because it is a reflection of perfect Thought. Your right mind sees only brothers, because it sees only in its own light.
I am convinced that I am meant to be only in the Kingdom and so to stay there the only thing I need to do is to focus my full attention on it. I used to think this was hard. By used to, I mean last week. I have made the most amazing discovery. It is not hard to stay in the Kingdom once you realize you can do this and decide you want to do it.
Yesterday I discovered someone at work made a mistake that caused me some trouble with a customer. For a moment I left Heaven and put myself back in hell as I followed that thought. Then I realized what I had done. I believed the thought that he should not have done that. I believed the thought that this separate person was guilty and that his guilt hurt me and made me upset. And just like that I was in hell.
Luckily, we make our own hell and it is in our mind right where God placed the Solution. I rested in the Solution and felt the peace of God fill me with joy and love and the truth. I realized that nothing happened. There is only innocence. I am one with my brother whom I love. I am in Heaven. I stay in Heaven as long as I want to. All that I need to do is to bring my focus back to Heaven.
Oh my God, I can’t believe it is that simple and that I managed to avoid understanding what Jesus has been telling us for so long. The ego mind wants my attention and warns me that this is all fine and good because it has not been tested by anything really serious. This is a thought I can follow if I start to miss hell. Hahaha.
There is only this moment and in this moment I choose to give my full attention to the Kingdom. What could be easier than that? I focus fully on the Kingdom this moment. In this moment I am in complete joy. If I start to think about what could happen in the next moment or what happened in a past moment, if I start to follow the ego thoughts, I throw myself out of Heaven, just like that!
But I understand now that I did it to myself. No one is forcing me out, pushing me through the door and into the ego storm. Knowing that I am solely responsible and that I have full control over what I think, I see that as Jesus says in today’s lesson, my salvation comes from me. In this moment I am in Heaven. And in this moment. In this moment. . .