II. The Law of the Kingdom, P 6
6 No one questions the connection of learning and memory. Learning is impossible without memory since it must be consistent to be remembered. That is why the Holy Spirit’s teaching is a lesson in remembering. I said before that He teaches remembering and forgetting, but the forgetting is only to make the remembering consistent. You forget in order to remember better. You will not understand His translations while you listen to two ways of interpreting them. Therefore you must forget or relinquish one to understand the other. This is the only way you can learn consistency, so that you can finally be consistent.
First I learned to recognize the ego thoughts when they showed up in my mind. Then I learned, through contrast, that these are not the thoughts that I want to believe. I then learned that the Holy Spirit will reinterpret for me if I wish, and that I can let my mind be healed. As I have gone through this process, learning to be very vigilant and very consistent, I have experienced more peace than I ever would have believed possible.
This process works very well until I become confused and listen to both voices. Last night this is what happened to me. I was reading from the Course one of the promises. I had the thought that I am never going to experience this, that if I haven’t succeeded by now it was never going to happen. It felt really discouraging to think about this.
I almost immediately heard the Voice for Truth reassure me that I can trust the words from Jesus and I wanted to believe that. But then the ego voice piped in with its “proof” that I am lost. It reminded me of how long I have been doing this and yet, am I awake? No. Even though I could hear Spirit quietly reassuring me, I could also hear the fear thoughts.
What I did was put on the audio version of the Course and let myself fall asleep listening to the truth. This was my way of making a choice for the Voice I would listen to and believe. It was my way of forgetting the other voice, relinquishing it in favor of the Holy Spirit. I woke up several times during the night to the uplifting words from the Course. This morning one of the first things I did was visit a new group I joined. It is a study of the book, “40 Days with Jesus: Celebrating His Presence” It said, in part:
Concentrate on keeping in step with Me, instead of trying to anticipate My plans for you. If you trust that My plans are to prosper you and not to harm you, you can relax and enjoy the present moment.
Sometimes I grant you glimpses of your glorious future, to encourage you and spur you on. But your main focus should be staying close to Me. I set the pace in keeping with your needs and My purposes.
This was such a perfect answer to my upsetting thoughts! First I cried because I needed to release the tension that was caused when I was at war in my own mind. I know the truth, but when I listened to both voices, and when I gave credence to both of them, I was necessarily confused.
Then I completely let go of the ego thoughts and having been given permission by my choice, the Holy Spirit healed my mind. There is no conflict now. The dark thoughts dissolved as my mind was illuminated. It was a certain and simple thing once my mind was focused on only the one Voice.