9. ARE CHANGES REQUIRED IN THE LIFE SITUATION OF GOD’S TEACHERS? P 2

2 As the teacher of God advances in his training, he learns one lesson with increasing thoroughness. He does not make his own decisions; he asks his Teacher for His answer, and it is this he follows as his guide for action. This becomes easier and easier, as the teacher of God learns to give up his own judgment. The giving up of judgment, the obvious prerequisite for hearing God’s Voice, is usually a fairly slow process, not because it is difficult, but because it is apt to be perceived as personally insulting. The world’s training is directed toward achieving a goal in direct opposition to that of our curriculum. The world trains for reliance on one’s judgment as the criterion for maturity and strength. Our curriculum trains for the relinquishment of judgment as the necessary condition of salvation.

 

Journal

I’m really clear about this. I cannot judge anything because I do not have the information necessary to do so. All I know is what I have learned from the past or from others and none of this is reliable. Even if all my information was reliable, I am very limited in what I can know. If I think I should do a certain thing, I might ask myself if I really know enough to make that judgment. Do I know all the possible outcomes of my decision? Do I know how it will affect me in the future, or how it will affect everyone touched by that decision now and in the future?

Of course, I do not have that information. I would feel frozen in indecision if I tried to work all that out, but I don’t need to guess, and guessing is what I am doing when I judge on my own. I can be given knowledge. If I stop trying to make decisions on my own, I can simply ask to be guided. That is a function of the Holy Spirit and it will be done for me as I request it. I will know what to do in any situation as long as I ask the Holy Spirit to decide for me.

The Holy Spirit has brought to my attention my resistance in asking Him at times. If fear enters into the situation, I can feel the resistance to letting go. This is absolutely insane. Knowing what I know now, how is it that I think I must keep control of the situation? How can I believe that I ever really had control? Fear makes us all insane. As I notice these thoughts in my mind, I ask the Holy Spirit to help me as I let them go. I am asking Him to add His strength to my wavering desire to be helped.

It is this consistent strengthening of my desire to see things differently and my willingness to be led that has brought me more clarity. I see now that the world we have made is not the world I want to keep in memory. It doesn’t make sense and the more we tinker with it, the less sense it makes. It is painful to see, but look I must. All of this is made by a mind that wanted to experience something outside of Knowledge. I’m done with it. I want only to lay aside my foolish notions of what needs to happen and accept what I receive through the Holy Spirit.