I seek but what belongs to me in truth.
Today’s idea continues with the thought that joy and peace are not but idle dreams. They are your right, because of what you are. They come to you from God, Who cannot fail to give you what He wills. Yet must there be a place made ready to receive His gifts. They are not welcomed gladly by a mind that has instead received the gifts it made where His belong, as substitutes for them.
Today we would remove all meaningless and self-made gifts which we have placed upon the holy altar where God’s gifts belong. His are the gifts that are our own in truth. His are the gifts that we inherited before time was, and that will still be ours when time has passed into eternity. His are the gifts that are within us now, for they are timeless. And we need not wait to have them. They belong to us today.
Therefore, we choose to have them now, and know, in choosing them in place of what we made, we but unite our will with what God wills, and recognize the same as being one. Our longer practice periods today, the hourly five minutes given truth for your salvation, should begin with this:
I seek but what belongs to me in truth,
And joy and peace are my inheritance.
Then lay aside the conflicts of the world that offer other gifts and other goals made of illusions, witnessed to by them, and sought for only in a world of dreams.
All this we lay aside, and seek instead that which is truly ours, as we ask to recognize what God has given us. We clear a holy place within our minds before His altar, where His gifts of peace and joy are welcome, and to which we come to find what has been given us by Him. We come in confidence today, aware that what belongs to us in truth is what He gives. And we would wish for nothing else, for nothing else belongs to us in truth.
So do we clear the way for Him today by simply recognizing that His Will is done already, and that joy and peace belong to us as His eternal gifts. We will not let ourselves lose sight of them between the times we come to seek for them where He has laid them. This reminder will we bring to mind as often as we can:
I seek but what belongs to me in truth.
God’s gifts of joy and peace are all I want.
This was an early journal entry, but it was such an important turning point for me that I have kept it as is. I still get caught up in the distraction of everyday life, but since this time, I find it less upsetting and more easily undone.
Yesterday was a hectic and uncomfortable day. I had pain from carpel tunnel; I had pain from some kind of lower back thing; I had a lot of unfinished business at work and not enough time to get it done; I had some last minute preparations for the conference to take care of, and on and on it went. By the time I was driving home and realized I had to stop at the store for one more thing, I felt like crying.
This was definitely not the happy life I felt so optimistic about that morning. So I asked Holy Spirit for clarity. I was shown that these are the gifts I gave myself, and they are the blocks that prevent me from accepting God’s gifts instead. Pain and suffering prove that I am a body, and the demands of time keep me on the hamster wheel, running in circles and getting nowhere. Who has time to be happy with all the distractions I have given myself. Some gifts!
As soon as I saw clearly what was going on, a lot of the frustration and upset fell away. I got home to another unexpected problem, but now I felt differently about it and so it was a quickly passing upset. But again, I was shown that seeing everything from the perspective of separation thinking, I am confronted with problems and enemies. As soon as I choose to see from the perspective of joining with life, I see opportunities and love.
I felt unnerved by this experience yesterday, Jesus. I haven’t had pain in a long time, not since I did the work with lesson 190. I haven’t gotten so entangled with the ego thinking in a long time. Could you please talk to me about this.
Jesus: I wouldn’t be too worried that this is happening to you right now. You noticed yourself that the ego has gone from suspicious to vicious recently. The part of your mind that is afraid of union and afraid of God is digging in its heels. It is kicking and screaming. You are used to believing what you hear in your mind and even though you have done well in learning to question your thoughts, you can still become confused.
Let me remind you that you did not give time to your lesson yesterday. Instead you gave your attention to the ego mind. You must protect what you have accomplished because it is still new and separation thinking is well established. You were given the idea of a garden newly planted, with new and tender sprouts that must be protected until they are stronger and more firmly established. This is why you were guided to do the lessons again this year.
I know you have been happy to see how new they feel, and how meaningful they are to you. You also know that understanding, no matter how deep that understanding goes is not the same thing as application. Give me more of your time, my sister, and you will find this transition period easier.
When you start to feel harried by life, too busy to stop for five minutes, remember that this is exactly the purpose of all this activity. The ego part of your mind may want desperately to hold onto the separate identity, but that is just a small part of your mind. You pay attention to it simply because you are used to doing so.
You can stop any time by simply turning away from it. This you know. What it offers you is nothing, and a lot of nothing is still nothing. What you give your time to defines your goal and your purpose. You want to be happy. You want to awaken. Read the lessons; write about them. This establishes your intent for the day. But then do the lessons. This establishes you purpose and keeps it at the forefront of your mind.
Me: Thank you my brother.